Okay so the diarrhea got worse. I think it can be traced to one of the shaker cups that I didn't wash properly.

Anyway, one particular sentence struck me yesterday. Perhaps it was her strong chinese accent that reminded me of a certain chinese teacher who would ground her students back into the reality of life during lessons.

"Ni3 de4 ming4 hen2 ku3 ma1?"

Makes you realize that as a typical singaporean, we take so much forgranted. Our freedom, our safety, our way of life. But still unsatisfied, we yearn and long to feel more fulfilled.

Then again its only human nature to revolve our goals around our needs and wants.


Been thinking long and hard about the route after ns. On one hand, there's Business in SMU, Design in NTU, or just get out there are start doing music.

After O's, the choice seemed simpler, because I knew that I wanted to pursue my interest as a career and break away from the undecided majority which would proceed with what society coaxed them into believing is the better thing to do.

Now, its somehow not that simple. Because to follow my interest, there are more options available.

I always believe that if someone can teach you something, somewhere along the line someone must have figured it out on his own. Hence irregardless of the subject matter, someone went to rough it out and through experience procured the syllabus which would be spoon-fed to the drones of education.

I remember catching a few minutes of "the apprentice" one day during dinner. In that episode there were the street-wise business people, who grew up and established their businesses on their own. Then there was the other group which consisted of "qualified" professionals who set up their business after university. During the assigned task, neither class could out-shine the other as a group.

Perhaps I'm trying to relate this self-taught business paradigm to my music. Just as people can say that a self-taught business man will get dominated by someone who studies business, they can also say that a self-taught musician will never compare to someone who studies music. But this apparantly is not true.

I remember reading up somewhere that those who follow the safe and logical path climb up to the top 70%-80%. But to really breakthrough, you need something else. And the top 90% and 100% are made of those who make study qualification an obsolete aspect of their portfolio.

Do I have what it takes to be one of the special few? I don't know. But I know that you'll never get there if you don't even try.