Still coming along....
Experimenting with beats can be quiet a daunting task... mainly because I've used simple yet effective beats in the past... but this genre just requires something more.... compelling, because there can't be a too obvious melody.

Was thinking of asking Jianan or Benson to help with the beats are, those trance/techno freaks... but I figured that would be quite gh3y...

Improvement only comes through struggling, this is the best opportunity for me to work up this rather "weak" area to get it on for the upcoming musical next year.

So yeah. Metal gear substance and rainbow six techy sexy ambient beats are belong to us now.







Headed to the weights room after class to do... duh, weights. No one around. This year is so slacked. I don't see anyone training during the exam period. Last year at least we still had a faithful bunch. Slackers...

But I have been seeing those atheletics guys around in the gym. They're quite hard working, coming in for extra trainings.



Okok, back to work. Sha-neroh!

Still working on the soundtrack...

Been doing some research on Bill Brown. Walau... his arrangements for movies and games are like... godly loh. Only thing is... his melodies are utterly unmemorable. But he does that on purpose because thats his style. Apparantly by not having any solid melody, his arrangements can blend in seeminglessly, yet the beats and chord progressions and modulations will get the feelings going just right.

"When writing music, please write like Wagner, only louder."

Awesome orchestrated pieces, but no melody. Kinda like senseless pop or rock where the only focus is on the beat.

I prefer Nobuo and Joe Hisaishi's pieces much more. They can have everything, awesome arrangements, yet engaging melodies. David Kalabakov, is another awesome composer.

Still evolving my style... but one thing's for sure. I concentrate on the melodies to drive the piece through. But I guess I'll play around with Bill Brown's style a little bit... see where in the middle do I land...

Some tracks are sounding good, some sound errr.... ok. When this is done I'll upload it somewhere for the masses to enjoy.

The human character.

Branched off into several personalities.

Unlike Multiple Personality Disorders, which have conflicting characters appearing, everyone has several personalities.

Nothing like extreme differences. But more like different reactions based on our surroundings and external factors.

For example, one could have different personalities when:

He is alone, in private,

He is alone, in society,

He is with friends, in society,

He is at work,

He is at play.

Like water, so fragile and sensitive, it can respond to vibrations from music, a gentle breeze, changes in temperature, or rise up as powerful waves when strong winds blow.

Cause and effect, one of the many things one must examine when he reaches a sufficient level of emotional understanding of himself, and the people around him.

But such knowledge is useless unless we use it to our advantage. Many people who realize such things and cannot see a reason to use it in a beneficial manner often turn cynical, or pessimistic.

Through mental imaging, psychomotor exercises, or vocal exercises, one can put himself into his most productive, or optimize a certain personality to be more productive.

But the most beneficial aspect one has to gain from this, if he dealt with art or creation, would be to find which environment he would be most productive in, or which personality he can control the best to syphon out inspirations.

Many succesful composers or artists make use of thic concept to put themselves in a more optimized state during the incubation period of their ideas.

Art and music isn't about logic. You can't piece together things you've heard before. Thought application would be no different than reciting poetry - its not yours hence unoriginal, and useless.

Then again, one could say he would go with "feelings" during the creation processes. But feelings, are based on past experiences afterall. What you've heard or felt before, you want to replicate, or nostalgia of a melody or beat. Still, ultimately useless.

Ahhh but the greatest irony is in this - to be creative, you would have to defy all logic. Because that is, afterall, the essence of it all. To ignore logic.

But that would mean that one would have to disregard everything written earlier, making it meaningless to attempt to comprehend the preceding information.

But creativity, without direction, is also, utterly meaningless and useless.

The perfect balance of both. To ignore logic to an extent, yet to obey it. A wave directed at a point.





Yes, I am having problems with the soundtrack for this damned military game....

Friday:

Holiday! Ahuahaua.

Went to get a haircut, then headed down to the street basketball courts.

The old gang is still around :)

Funny how some things never change... Most of the guys grew taller, got bigger, but everything still feels indifferent. But one thing's different now - ahahaha I haven't been playing ball often. Not like last time, when we'd see each other every day at the courts.

Nah, dragonboat and canoeing for me now, although most of these guys got into the school teams easily. Some quit because they didn't like to follow training procedures. Haha. Rebellious, so much so that they didn't want the fun of the game to be sapped away by siong training.

Oh, the main difference is that the street court gangs merged.

Well, once upon a time, there were two street basketball courts in Bishan. Each had a gang which frequented it. They would engage each other in friendly games, but the rivalry between these two gangs remained on for what seemed to be forever.

But one day, Bishan CC decided to renovate their whole premises, and the basketball court too. So the gang from the CC went over to the old court everyday.

These two groups then got more familiar with each other, and accepted each other. Then, when the new court behind Bishan CC was completed, everyone moved over there.

The end.

Its quite fascinating in a way, everyone from different schools, different age groups and walks of life, meeting regularly just to hang out and play ball. If a senior or older member of the gang walks across the court of happens to walk by, everyone would respectfully call out his name, even right in the middle of a match.

Strong bonds formed, strong friendships, the perfect team. This is probably what we lack, the love of the game. Then again, who in the hell would like dragonboat?

The only thing I disagree with the gang is their smoking. Even the youngest of the group smokes, sec 1-2. Well, nothing's perfect.


Played a match with the guys. Scored one incredible starting shot, then my team got trashed haha, opposing team was older, and more experienced, I guess we were seriously out-classed. Screwed up a few attacks myself, wtf?

Got CAPCOM VS SNK 2 at last... got my ass beaten by god rugal for half an hour and 9999 continues until I managed to find that damned opening in the AI. Basic over-offensive opening. Attack triggers flooding the AI processor nutil he forgets to block right when he gets up. Muhahahaha, I am the one!












Saturday:

Stupid project....

Then called Brian and found out there was no cell, and they didn't wanna play ball. Haiz, so what to do, went over to the gym and met some of team for extra-training. Mostly girls but I psychoed everyone to go and play ball with me there. Better play with girls then nothing.

Played 2 matches, then the girls wanted to play horse. wtf?

So melvin and I went along loh. Melvin kept screwing up everything for some reason, but I completely trashed the poor girl whos turn was after me.

But they managed to nail me once, so I got a H the second time through. Why do they do such things? I mean, you just DON'T shoot a ball at baseline and left one leg up as you jump off the ground and throw both arms out. Looks like one of chunli's victory poses.

Went home to play more gunbound.... Zzzzzzzzzzz











Sunday:

Rowing was ok... not used to this paddle and boat in comparison to last week, so balance very cocked up in the beginning. Then halfway I ran up to the toilet at the breakwater due to stomache ache. And lo and behold... no toilet roll.

Disastrous...


So I headed back out to the T1, looked at SDBA. 500 metres away... but I could use the toilet there... but stomache ache tooo baddddd already!

Finally I summoned up the courage, and told myself this will be the fastest 500 metres that I have rowed in my entire life.

And it was so.

The waters parted behind my boat, the side splash threw itself up in fear as my paddle sliced and pulled inside the water! And I was there.




Rowing was much better after that, although felt a little under the weather... hrm... oh and I have another hold in my finger from I dunno what.

Woke up at 7am suddenly, realizing that I had left my damned dragonboat jersey and shorts at kallang yesterday.

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

Damn kallang toilet, so fricking dark and crowded!

Frick, there goes my only wearable blue jersey... the other one is too tiny liao. At least have the new red and previous orange one, eh.

Went to kallang macs to get some breakfast, and sat with two juniors while waiting for my food. Saw the two chio bus from the week before sitting in the corner! They're so cute... last week they sat in the corner near the window, this week they sat in inside corner.

I think they're from NUS or NTU. Couldn't read their windbreakers properly due to the angle, and any more staring and I may have seemed like I was staring... haha.

I think if I ever go to a singapore U... unless theres design stuff, the only reason for me to go would be for the chio bus!

Then Sensei patrick told me that he didn't get the key for the school's locker. So... I had to use his T1 and paddle. Which is pretty good anyway, and we hunted for a footrest which we managed to find later.

But the footrest was too short. So short that it only just managed to fit the plastic holders. So, later when I was launching I saw two dirty tennis balls floating in the water, and I ingeniously went to pick them up and use them to secure the ends of the footrest.

Super high waves near the pontoon, dunno why. And I was quite ham ji to go fast because havent warmed up yet and was afraid to capsize so I went super slow to the beach.

Then did laps. Spotted the NJC canoeists, paced with them abit. They may not have been going too fast... but they were doing laps without stopping. That's quite freaky. So I cut down on all my rest times too.

Saw the civil defence boat, apparantly Roy and Weiwen are rowing for CD now... dunno why. But kinda odd seeing them train with another team.

Then I paced with some baby boat - and won. But turned around to see some japs inside. Walau...

Crossing the area from the breakwater to oasis beach is like crossing the road. You need to look left, right, then left again or else you'll see some dragon boat charging straight at you.

Stroke is still improving, better catch, better pull. Even did charging sets today and was really flying.

High tide today, so didn't see any dead bloated stuff. Whew.

After the NJC canoeists finished their rowing went to chase dragonboats for a while. Almost went too near to one, but luckily they stopped their set or else I think I would kenah hammer by the paddles liao.

Went running after kept boats, then went to Bishan to look for game to buy. All my choices were sold out. Damnit, I swear they're stock is super lousy. Luckily my download of max payne 2 is at 98% ahuahuahuahua.

Since everyone turned ham ji to use kazaa, there have been newer better technologies developed for p2p. Quite ironic eh, they stop something, then people just go on to make better, faster more efficient applications. That's dealing with the problem in the wrong area for you...

So Ben still doesn't want the canoeists to join us for the race. Needless to say, I am quite pissed at the situation. But, He knows best so I'll let him have the final say ultimately.... this time.

So I don't think we can do too well for the mens ivp race. Not enough guys, poor attitude of some rowers. Spastic team... but I'll fight on with those who are willing, because only losers would give up, even when everything is telling you that we can't make it... I still believe that we can. I will hope for the best for the guys team, and count on the mixed event for my medal.

Training today was fantastic. Despite the retarded hot sun...

Got a cracked paddle, and, was wondering if it would break while I row. Previously, I've seen Jin tien break 3 cracked paddles... no one else, and I've had cracked paddles in the past but have failed to do any significant damage to the damned things.

But analyzing how far I've come with the technique and power... the possibility seemed quite high.

During one of our fartlek sets, I charged as usual, I felt the chakra encompase my arm and lats and the paddle became lighter, I pulled faster, until the whole length of the pull felt the force, throwing the water up in the air as I exited, faster, harder, faster, harder, then I felt the pull suddenly change, and the broken off piece flopped by some last wooden strands as I brought up the paddle to recover. Splash into the water for another stroke, then the next time it surfaced, the broken off piece was no more.

A smirk leaked out as we continued on infront of the girls boat, they finished their set... then we finished ours.

I have officially joined the ranks of Jin tien to strike fear in the hearts of all paddles.

Then later Ben asked me to "look at Mun Ting and tell her whats wrong with her stroke later." So I did.

Now, Ben never asked anyone specifically to look at someone then tell them whats wrong with their stroke. So this got me thinking.

Keeping in mind that He is usually quiet and is a deep thinker... I got a little worried as to why he asked that of me.

But I've come to the conclusion that I was thinking too far, it was just inconvenient for him to yell out to correct her since we were on different boats, and later it would be more appropriate for me to let her know.

So there.




Came back home to relax. And what do I see on icq? Yaofeng blah blahing about how they found a new world map tool for me to explore. Like... why the HELL are they still doing work in school, and why the hell are they bothering me about project crap on a WEEKEND?! Sheesh, I'm starting to think he's a workaholic... that's just scary. Doesn't he have a life? I may have to look around to set him up with a girl soon...


Saw the other teams today. NYJC is looking strong. That charboh shouting at the front sounded like Diana...

Must keep FIGHTING.

Tomorrow, canoeing sea training... aiming for 35km wahahaha. Hell yeah.

Got one of the more interesting fan mails in the inbox today:

hi Lord Reu, I've decided to disturb you (sorry sorry sorry) because i'd like to know if it's in your future projects to continue to work on Evil Ryu & Evil Ken for Mugen.....i hope so because they are really amazing characters, and, apart for other ideas u may have, there's little to do to make them complete......I am talking about the intro for Evil Ryu and both endings.........and, of course and most important, the Raging Demon Attack for Evil Ryu!!!!!!!!! He has a lot of cool moves, but that is really important!!!!!!! I am a great fan of Capcom chars and I have divinized you when I saw what u did with them........make me worship you again and finish them please........at least these things.............:))))))))
Ok, I've been too silly so I'll quit here and I wish u good work!! :)))
Regards,
SpaikMax


Needless to say, I am thoroughly amused.
Ahuahuahua.

Pissed.

Canoeing training was fun today.

Did 8 rounds, first 4 was pretty slow cuz we let the juniors lead, but they were like damned slack so me and Loy took the lead and sped things up. Was a little worried about my shin due to the speed that we were going at, but I managed to make it with the no-splash running technique.

Pushups after that, Loy's quite scary too... I thought I sweat a hell lot, because in-between pushups, your body forms this arch... so all the sweat will roll up (or down..) my chest or everywhere and accumulate at my nose or mouth so I can literally collect and drink it in my mouth or let it form a puddle on the floor. But today, his puddle was bigger than mine... whoa.

Then I think some of the juniors are quite perverted... one of the guys came up to me after statics and went "whoa" then proceeded to carass my stomach. Funny guys. Then that bastart Jeremy punched me so hard before training... I still haven't socked him back yet! But... its hard... I'll probably end up kaze no ken'ing him then got problem liao.

Then we did swimming! Ahahaha. Was quite curious to see how the canoeists would stand up to "Numbah one dragon boater fastest swimmer!". Got quite a few good swimmers, but I still managed to come in first, ahuahua. Had to borrow Hongda's shorts because my stupid shorts missing string... so cannot tie then when I go too fast I'll leave the damned thing behind.



Then came the dissapointing part. I was originally scheming with Ivan to ask the canoeing guys over to help the dragonboaters for the race. Seriously loh, our crappy numbers, and the shit attitude some of the juniors and even seniors are giving during training... we definately won't be able to make it for the race like this loh. If we can get the canoeing seniors in, which they are very keen on, it will help our numbers, boost team morale and increase our chances for the race.

But- Ivan told me that apparantly Ben said "no" and Jonathan said we have enough guys.

That's downright retarded. We had about the same number last year. But half of these guys aren't coming down regularly so whats the point? And the previous races spoke for themselves loh. Not enough guys, or no guys event at all.

Ben's not picking up the phone... Jonathan already said he was fine with it.

I hate it when they don't tell me things. Its fricking retarded. Whatever, I'm going to fight for this.

Saturday:

FYPJ in the morning was ok....

Training the afternoon was more fun. Although there was a pathetic number of the guys team showed up. At least the girls could fill in a baby boat. Then earlier I found out that Stephen wasn't going for training. Why? Because the attendance is like crap and he feels no morale to train. Got quite pissed and blasted at him a little over the phone.

Firstly, being in a team is about taking and giving. Yes, its good to feel good because you're part of some awesome team. But when you leave in bad times, then what's that say about your commitment? What's that say about the team's sincerity? Then, by not going because of such a reason, you're just making things worse loh...

Anyway, the water in kallang was like shiiiiiiiiiit. Like someone's lao sai water. So fricking brown. What the heck was the rain doing to my beloved basin?! Coach Ben asked me to go left, cuz boat was imbalanced. I geniusly managed to feel my usual powerful catch and pull on the left side, too. Ambidexterous Reu, good job.

We thrashed the girls boat for a couple of sets... although I think the head starts they had weren't enough. Looking around I felt quite dispaired. about 8-10 guys... then besides Jonny... all of them weren't twisting or throwing themselves forward enough during stroke.

AHHHH!!! I'm going to grab all these buggers for extra training!!!!11111

Talked to Jonny abit after training. Told him about some stuff regarding training. I always think of Jonny as having a really hard job... like being so young yet cap of older guys and such. But then... there's only one year difference between us anyway.

I talked to Steph about how to get the team back together... extra trainings, and such. I figured its quite stupid to leave everything to the cap and hope that he sorts things out. It may be expecting too much, but in the end, its up to us to take a pro-active role in the team. Because the team is made out of the team, not the cap.

Heh, fancy me talking about trying to get the team back together... the one who ran over to canoeing to have his own race just in case the dragonboat race sucked like last time...

Went to church after that. Really envisioned my bed but I figured I'd see what was going on. Lots of familiar faces... the on-screen presentation was quite good. Looked like the product of aftereffects and premiere. Went to eat CHICKEN RICE after that. Haven't eaten chicken rice in Novena for like sooooooooo long. It was awesome... but that damned soup! Still so much msg for what?!

Some problems with Lionel while we were going there... the group never changes. Same type of interactions going on. Its fun but I'm not sure if thats good or bad?

Took a bus back with Karen after that. Found out lots of stuff... and revealed some juicy background info on the gang to her... ahahaha.

Hmm... sweet, I can see why he likes her.



Sunday!:

Managed to talk to Sensei Patrick about me not being able to make it on Sats... and suprisingly... he's letting me come down on Sundays to row! *ecstasy*

Perhaps I saw this possibility whilst I was talking to him too... mainly because he has a passion for the sport... and wants to share it. I shall not take this passionate chance forgranted.

Woke up at 7... went down to kallang. The one star course Patrick was teaching was going to stay around the beach, so I was all along during all of my sets. Water was still as shit as saturday... but after it drizzled and stopped... drizzled and stopped, it cleared up a little. Took the RED racer out. The red boat is like damn sat... I look like team singapore rowing in it or something hahaha.

Kallang basin should be called Kallang Watery Animals Cemetery. Saw a bloated rat, which was rolling around on the shore due to the waves. It looked quite cute at first... like some cute ilttle fat rat... but then I realized the damned thing was dead so I did not play with it. Then saw a bloated toad in the middle of nowhere... and then a pigeon at the beach. Sensei Patrick asked "You want pigeon for lunch?", yuck loh...

Paced a little with the ngee ann canoeists. Not sure how far they were going per set... but I managed to catch up to their first canoeist a couple of sets along the beach. I recognized one of them... came in before his pair during the duo-athelon. I don't think they're that strong... what happened to all the other canoeists today? Cheers, ngee ann's coach spotted me and watched a little. Probably wondering why this bugger is canoeing all by himself haha. Genius secret training!


When the one star course ppl went for lunch, Patrick showered me with attention. Damn cool, during his tutelage I managed to get from okay stroke to super sat twisting on formz by the end of the day. That's why I regard him more of a Sensei then a coach... although they mean the same thing in some places... For Ben, everything's like... strict, high discipline. You ask him something... he'll give you a quick straight answer then move on. For Patrick, he'll let you push yourself... just to see your interest, then prod and poke you in the right direction with comments. Then when the time is right he will bombard you with attention. Even a simple question can be answer with several references. This really helps to keep the fun in canoeing, I think. Really lucky to have crossed paths with him.

Dragon boat races going on... some british, japan, australian, canadian teams duking it out. I stood there and watched them go out... felt quite sad at first... remembering my own race with the team... Will it ever be like that again? Then those cute japs almost overturned the dragonboat when they lifted their hands up for stretching exercise and stretched... right.

A lot of dragon boats going around today. Was quite afraid some coxswain wouldn't spot me then I would go flying out of the water. Tried to spy on some of the other teams too, hahaha. Some of the rowers are quite amusing. You see these huuuge guys who have closed squinted eyes rowing as if damn shacked.

You can tell the unity of a team by the rower's expressions, really. I don't think our team's unified even. If I looked at our team while they were rowing, I'd probably see many different expressions, instead of one unified one. I for one vary between normal, serious, PISSED OFF, to laughing and smiling like an idiot.

If a team is really serious they would only have one expression altogether - Serious.

Happened to capsize right in the middle of the basin when I was aiming for the toilet and beach. Omg... had to tow this huge boat a good 400+ plus metres back. Slowly slowly kicked, some dragonboats passed me by and the coxswain asked if I was ok, then I gave him the thumbs up. Nothing a dragonboat can do anyway... Luckily Loy and Sid came to help. I must learn how the heck Naresh managed to overturn his boat and get back on while still in the water. Thats quite shen...


30km altogether... arms not tired but was feeling damned sleepy so I took a nap earlier.

Dunno what game to play....

The tremors have been shaking the games design studio for about a week now...

First, the rumours, then the pictures, then the trailer.

FINAL FANTASY 7-2 ADVENT CHILDREN!

The continuation movie of final fantasy 7, by square....

Finally... THE final fanatsy movie.


"2 years ago.... we thought nothing would happen..."


-Cloud stands at a grave-


"I told myself I was going to love for you... but now..."



AHhhhh!!!1 I MUST WATCH THIS MOVIE >_<



Was approached by Mr Tan today... asked me if I wanted to go on some trip to Laos to do some design/web project...

Seems fun... plus the fact that only 2 design students can go on the trip...

"must be able to endure hardships" was on the criteria... dunno why he came up to me also... said he was looking for the outdoor type. This sparked my interest... but... the trip is right smack during the river regetta... the dragon boat races. So... I think I'll tell him I can't go on monday.

*sigh*

Seems like excos are more troublesome then I thought.

Was talking to K the other day, and he said the other reason why he's stopping canoeing for a while is because he doesn't believe in the new commitee. wtf? He doesn't believe in the new commitee? They haven't even had a chance to act yet and hes already not liking them.

I for one believe in Samantha, and her choice and decisions based on her interviews with the year 2s. I believe that the choices she made for the new commitee are at least 90% of the best choice makable.

Then I met another Weiheng during weights just now. She tried to act okay but my genius intuition told me something was wrong. Don't know how her club's giving her problems, but I don't think its right loh. She gives more to SE than I do to PE and they give her problems. Egos maybe? I think that if they're not in the club because of passion for what they believe in, then forget it. Don't know why some people join clubs for CCA points too...

Some of the juniors ask me "this event got CCA point or not?" or "if got go got CCA point or not?". wtf? If they have a passion for the club activities, they will naturally be more involved and the points will just reflect that loh? I got like... 38+ points at the end of year 2... thats like... beyond distinction or whatever for pearls...

More victims of Singapore's screwy education system....

Yes, I'm enjoying the project now. Screw certain retarded team mates, screw leave, screw supervisors, screw it all. Geniuses feel no pressure, because we shine naturally Ahuahuahauhuahuahuahuahau!

Was planting trees today for the island. Yes, I was bestowed with the powers of MOTHER NATURE!!! And the island felt the awesome wrath of FATHER NATURE! Trees and grass could grow out from their groups and onto roads, blocking all hideous mechanic objects from passing by! Trees and grass would hover and float all over hills and bumps! Millions of clusters of trees and grass blow up the polygon count in the area until the geforce 3 would lag! And the geforce 2mx would cough out blood and die when traversing my awesome plains! But now... all is calm.


Training just now went okay.

So runners knee is recovered! Hooray! But the 4km run I did every day 2 weeks ago for the duathlon has produced a new problem... shinsplints.

Reads up to be caused by a structural fracture in the bone. wtf? yes. WTF?! I just recover from one problem and a new shitty problem arises to bother my running. Heh. Geniuses always have extra obstacles to overcome. Yes! This damn thing will be no problem to me, AHUAHUAHUAHAUUAH. More milk... no... milk high in fat and crap. Calcium... alternate sources of calcium... absorption. Damn, more research to be done.

After running was circuit. There was a part where we did a 50 metre dash back on the grass. Woo, that was fun, no pain on the grass so I cycled my legs like sonic the hedgehog and enjoyed the speed while I could. Then durign weights.. felt like throwing up. Hrm... maybe haven't fully recovered yet. But still managed to clock 460meters for the 2 minute rowing. Third highest today while feeling like throwing up. I couldn't pull full strength and make the machine scream like my bitch. Then Rendy kept cursing me about being sick yet clocking 11 metres away from the highest score. Crap lah, if I was feeling okay I'd blow you all away okay...

Then at the end I heard someone call my name and turned to see Rachel. Secondary school classmate. Super shocked to see her in NYP. She was like "Whoa you changed soooo much." And I just gawked and smiled at her while she walked off hahaha, so intelligent.

Trying to call up the juniors for extra training tomorrow. A couple of buggers coming down... good.

Freaky, Luann asked a question which I asked myself on the blog earlier in the morning during afternoon meeting.


Been thinking about goals in life and priorities and commitments...

Seriously wouldn't mind doing music or doing something related to sports for ministry but...

Then I remembered why I "left" church in the first place.


I wanna see how far I can go on my own. Without his help, without depending on him.

I can't ever accept my successes to be fom him... yet.

I'm still on my own.

And until I either succeed and know what it feels like, or get into so much trouble that there's no other way.... I'll still go on my own.

Well Miss Teo is telling me to do work during the time that I am in on saturday.

Basically to earn the saturday off priviledge I'm going to have to put in extra work. Then doing bible study during this time may give my team mates a bad impression. But what bad impression is there to give if I'm doing extra hours and extra work in the first place?

*sigh* what a pain in the ass. She says she may fail me from the project if this keeps up.

Nows the time to blast out all powerfulness during the weekdays. We'll see what happens next sat.

Well, my appeal for saturdays off from fyspj was not approved by the course directed. "It's not the norm for us to grant saturdays off." Was his words... or something like that.

But interestingly enough, this has had a very odd effect. If I infact did get sat off, I'd probably still be alternating sabbaths at church and canoeing, or still playing around in church like usual. But it so happens that this was the perfect situation to spark my rebellious bahaviour again. So now I'm sitting down here at the computer for bible study, not touching any work, and analyzing this "purpose driven book" from sabbath school. Driving Yao feng mad when he asks me to do something and I tell him "Ok, on monday." I won't budge, and he still asks every week. Sorry Yao Feng. He even tried to engage me in little mind games to get me to do work on sabbath, but unfortunately for him I am the king of all mind games, in and out of the world of collision boxes. And let the lecturers come and see me if they don't like me resting on sabbath, I put back the extra hours on weekdays anyway. Sha-neroh!

Looks like that Bugger found the perfect situation to have me willingly bible study.

Hmph.

Whatever, I need to bring a bible here next saturday. This purpose driven book is good and inspiring, but I disagree with the author at too many points.

About contentment in life:

"In order to keep us from becoming too attached to earth, God allows us to feel a significant amount of discontent and dissatisfaction in life - longings that will never be fulfilled on this side of eternity. We're not completely happy here because were created for something much better.

A fish would never be happy living on land, because it was made for water. An eagle could never feel satisfied if it wasn't allowed to fly. You will never feel completely satisfied on earth, because you were made for more. You will have happy moments here, but nothing compared with what God has planned for you."

But a fish would die on land, just like we would die in water. An eagle may miss flying, but if he never flew in the first place, what would be there to miss? Just like we were never physically in heaven in our life, I don't see why we would be discontent with our lives.

He's trying to tell people that loving God is all about being a loser, missing a home we've never been to, suffering for Him, dying like a martyr.

That may be true at times, but I think to really glorify him, you would succeed, and people would see God's power and glory through you. He quotes a runner in his book by saying "God made me good at running, and every time I run, I praise God."

How can we be losers if we are his chosen children, his beloved creations, whom he has set good guidelines and morals to live by in life. We're following the guildelines set for healthy living, succesful friendships and bonds.

People praise God when they're succesful, then when they're down they say "oh, being a christian is about trials and tribulations."

I'd rather not look dwell at the problems at hand but think of how we can glorify him next.

Still not feeling well since tuesday's fever. I'm going to skip afternoon db training. Don't wanna be the weak rower who's trying to keep up due to him not feeling well.



Still indecisive about the Desaru trip, too. Esther was bugging me to go on icq. Don't know why she wants me to go so much. Probably a class reunion thingy to her. Why do females like class reunions so much? And its such a pain to get that passport renewed.

It's been an awesome 4 days.

Saturday - afternoon training

Missed canoeing because of stupid project. Went for dragonboat training though. It was... quite fun. Got a solid kicking action now and set next to Thomas. His stroke is like, pretty damn zai. He must have been observing me hahaha. Tianhong came down for training. It was good to have him back during his break from NS. Oh yeah, saw Ryan from TP too. Which came as a.... shock loh. During both our 3 years in dragonboat we like... never saw each other at kallang before. Then while I was going to get some water, he hit me on the shoulder and said "Heeeey!"

I went from a shocked face to a friendly suprised face while thinking damn hard who the heck this person was.. Then... ohhh Ryan. Hahaha.


Sunday - Duo-athelon

Canoe 4km, run 4km.

Melvin was first runner. He came back decently fast, but then was utterly shacked during the canoeing part. He kept stopping despite all my encouragements from the back, so I was pulling the weight of 2 people in the t2. Even coach ben and jonathan overtook us which is... disgusting loh, since I can out canoe them solo.

Was quite shacked during the 4km run after that, saw a couple of NJC canoeists, one of them gave me a thumbs up, and I returned the encouragement, sporting guys, they are. Speaking of which... its quite freaky. The area where they put all their bags is like... full of GNC shackers. Its like the school fricking sponsored them for supplements or something. Saw a couple of them glugging down colourful drinks too.

End result, we came in 21st place out of 34. Which is damn disgusting. Damn running, got overtaken abit, but the canoeing part with melvin was quite bad. He kept apologizing and asked me if I was pissed. Heck, I dunno what I was feeling. Its just too disgusting lah... I'm not pissed at him for stopping during the canoeing, but I am pissed off at the results. The running part was my fault too. I should have gone faster, screw the mentality that I had to canoe harder for the 4km.

Whatever, it's over. And my fire to train harder has been rekindled.


As a result, on monday-

I did 60 pullups during lunchbreak and weights, then went for canoeing training and did another 60 pullups when we were required to do 45. That's 120 pullups, hell yeah. Damn pissed, 21st place my ass. Next time I'm going to get in the top 10. Then running was good too, mirrored Team-Kenya's Jagdish's supreme running style, and went all out during the fartleks.

Then Samantha made us do some weird new style of situps which was, damn fun.

And then today's dragonboat training was damn fantastic.

Ben upped the training schedule again. We did 4km run, which I fell back after about 3km to run and encourage Rendy. Then we did circuits. Which was... super shacking after the 4km. But seeing Tianhong come in first for he circuit... I went all out and managed to come in 2nd after boonsan during the first set, then 3-4th place during the second set.

60 pullups after that, then more weights. Was feeling something was wrong during weights liao. Kept having to go drink water. Then during the last station I confirmed it. Hot breath, burning forehead. Looks like I got carried away during training. I went to the toilet to lie down amd try and calm the Chakra flow in my body, but I guess I'm too powerful liao... couldn't stop it, and I had a chakra overload and burned up even more.

So... called mom to pick me up, then told Ben.

Came home, and under her level 99 drug and soothing techniques, got the fever down from 38.6 degrees to... I dunno, but its 12:25 and I'm feeling much better.

Tomorrow's another story though.

Lots of work to do... *sigh*

This had better be settled be tomorrow, have training on thursday.