The day I saw you flicker, my heart stopped for a moment.
It tore me up inside to see those vagrant pixels ravage your clean projection.
What could be the cause of it? Was it that faulty usb2 card I installed? Or the new ram? Who has been bullying you?
But alas, it seems you may have passed the point of no return. Even typing this I fear that you may suddenly violently throw those blocks onto my screen and block my view.
Argh... my display card is sick. Suspect one of the intricate wires is burnt out. The longer I turn this screen on the more in danger of crashing.
I hope I can finish this entry before that happens ^_^;
Taking this time to brush up on my piano skills.
Concert on next next friday at nyp.
Need to get my ff7 battle theme to become godlike status again. And the new arrangement will make it ultra godlike status hahaha.
Plus the new medley. I always like to challenge myself to come up with a new arrangement for every new concert. I still remember my first concert. How frickin nervous I felt...
How I couldn't even start! The first few keys I hit were the wrong ones.
Ahh but after that, it all fell into place.
And concert after concert was perfect.
Been thinking about canoeing.
About how I should get back into the game.
But still am afraid. What happened last time.
Managed to beat some njc and ntu guys, but in the end, some one who's been rowing for so many years shows up and grabs the medal from all of us.
"Its not the medal that matters, its the struggle and how you get there."
I wish I could see your point of view.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
tired.
What have I gotten myself into?
Think my profile is abit too high around camp now... new appointment "Subject Matter Expert", which sounds very cool, but ALOT of responsibilities. I'm just glad I can still partially attach out.
Omgwtf, I'm just sick of swimming low. Its just too unnatural for me? If they want me to do this, I'll comply. The forthcoming project sounds like fun anyway.
Came across an interesting quote today.
"Your weapon is not a tool to hurt someone. Its a means to protect the ones you love."
You need to breathe oxygen to survive, you don't purposely exhale CO2.
And, I did a childish thing today. Threatened someone jokingly.
"Ever got hit 15 times in one second before?"
Sometimes I wonder if I let myself play along too much with them.
Heck, I wonder if I can still do it? Just a 10 hit sequence and I start to lose the focus.
Craving to stretch those muscles again and get back into action. The adrenaline of the fight. How easy it would be to go back to sensei.
Haha but I know my wrist and ankle won't be able to take it.
Plus the potential consequences are not something I want to live with.
What have I gotten myself into?
Think my profile is abit too high around camp now... new appointment "Subject Matter Expert", which sounds very cool, but ALOT of responsibilities. I'm just glad I can still partially attach out.
Omgwtf, I'm just sick of swimming low. Its just too unnatural for me? If they want me to do this, I'll comply. The forthcoming project sounds like fun anyway.
Came across an interesting quote today.
"Your weapon is not a tool to hurt someone. Its a means to protect the ones you love."
You need to breathe oxygen to survive, you don't purposely exhale CO2.
And, I did a childish thing today. Threatened someone jokingly.
"Ever got hit 15 times in one second before?"
Sometimes I wonder if I let myself play along too much with them.
Heck, I wonder if I can still do it? Just a 10 hit sequence and I start to lose the focus.
Craving to stretch those muscles again and get back into action. The adrenaline of the fight. How easy it would be to go back to sensei.
Haha but I know my wrist and ankle won't be able to take it.
Plus the potential consequences are not something I want to live with.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
I posted an older version of this last year, the night before I entered basic military training (boot camp). Was rushing like hell because I wasn't sure when the next time I would be able to work on music would be.
Managed to sneak in my mp3 player illegally and this song kept me comfort during the brief moments of peace before I fell asleep at night.
Hence the memory of this piece is very special to me. Late last year I caught the ff7 :AC movie and I knew that due to my rushing of this piece, it was somewhat incomplete.
And so I went to give it the attention it deserved.
The original goal of this piece was to re-live the story of FF7 through music.
http://www.reubenkee.com/music/remixes/Once%20Upon%20a%20Lifestream.mp3
Managed to sneak in my mp3 player illegally and this song kept me comfort during the brief moments of peace before I fell asleep at night.
Hence the memory of this piece is very special to me. Late last year I caught the ff7 :AC movie and I knew that due to my rushing of this piece, it was somewhat incomplete.
And so I went to give it the attention it deserved.
The original goal of this piece was to re-live the story of FF7 through music.
http://www.reubenkee.com/music/remixes/Once%20Upon%20a%20Lifestream.mp3
Monday, January 09, 2006
Duty over the weekend.
Sunday duty is bittersweet. Nice in the sense that you can play ps2 and no one will disturb you. But sucks in the sense that you're stuck in camp... on a weekend.
Flag raising at 6am. The flag strings really suck loh... no one maintains the straightness or anything. Army really takes the fun out of everything haha. I remember when it was fun to raise the flag in school. Now its like..... "Do a good job or you'll get screwed later." -_-
New boss arrived at last. A lot of stuff to do from what he says. Had to talk to him abit about my attachment to sa. Somehow i had a feeling, and I was right. A good leader wins his followers infront of his peers, infront of other people, and when hes alone with you. He took the chance to win me over by supporting me, and in return now has my trust. I think that there's a lot that I can learn from this guy.
BAD POINT is... I book out 30 mins later than usual now. Wtf. Oh well.
It was raining the whole day today. Left the grass wet. Forgot I wasn't wearing my boots and tried to cross some grass, getting my track shoes wet. Shit.
Wanted to run in camp today but really too busy. Sigh.
Speaking of running in camp... I really hate the nature around camp!
One time I was running... then suddenly this big ass branch with leaves about 1.5 time my size came smashing down 2 metres infront of me! If I had sprinted earlier I would be in hospital....
Another time I was crossing inbetween two trees and didn't see this bloody bug resting on it which panicked when I got too close and flapped its bloody wings flying off while spraying some bloody aroma which tasted fricking bitter wtf!
But the worse part is snakes... there was once when I was innocently enjoying my run, when suddenly this snake just dropped infront of me. Then another time I thought I was going to hop over a brance then the damn brance wriggled and ended being a damned snake!
But there was one time I laughed quietly to myself when I was running on the road and saw a really FLATTENED snake imprinted on the gravel. hahaha..... poor sucka didn't see that tonner coming :p
Sunday duty is bittersweet. Nice in the sense that you can play ps2 and no one will disturb you. But sucks in the sense that you're stuck in camp... on a weekend.
Flag raising at 6am. The flag strings really suck loh... no one maintains the straightness or anything. Army really takes the fun out of everything haha. I remember when it was fun to raise the flag in school. Now its like..... "Do a good job or you'll get screwed later." -_-
New boss arrived at last. A lot of stuff to do from what he says. Had to talk to him abit about my attachment to sa. Somehow i had a feeling, and I was right. A good leader wins his followers infront of his peers, infront of other people, and when hes alone with you. He took the chance to win me over by supporting me, and in return now has my trust. I think that there's a lot that I can learn from this guy.
BAD POINT is... I book out 30 mins later than usual now. Wtf. Oh well.
It was raining the whole day today. Left the grass wet. Forgot I wasn't wearing my boots and tried to cross some grass, getting my track shoes wet. Shit.
Wanted to run in camp today but really too busy. Sigh.
Speaking of running in camp... I really hate the nature around camp!
One time I was running... then suddenly this big ass branch with leaves about 1.5 time my size came smashing down 2 metres infront of me! If I had sprinted earlier I would be in hospital....
Another time I was crossing inbetween two trees and didn't see this bloody bug resting on it which panicked when I got too close and flapped its bloody wings flying off while spraying some bloody aroma which tasted fricking bitter wtf!
But the worse part is snakes... there was once when I was innocently enjoying my run, when suddenly this snake just dropped infront of me. Then another time I thought I was going to hop over a brance then the damn brance wriggled and ended being a damned snake!
But there was one time I laughed quietly to myself when I was running on the road and saw a really FLATTENED snake imprinted on the gravel. hahaha..... poor sucka didn't see that tonner coming :p
Friday, January 06, 2006
Been so long since I last entered.
So much has happened, I guess.
I guess it was when I found out that some people were reading this blog and didn't tell me about it.
You don't have to tell me for me know, actually.
I don't mind people reading this. But I don't want them to get the wrong idea of what I say. All this is is a log for me to look back on in the future, to relive a bit of the past in order to learn from for a better future. I only with to be in harmony with my peers and friends, and should this jeapordize that, then this will surely stop.
Anyway, its hard to filter stuff out, especially with the stuff thats been happening in camp.
When I found out that the my was a secret. That what everyone knew about it was a lie. I felt honored at first to hold such a responsibility to the future of the battalion. Then it hit me who the enemy was. And I felt like I didn't know who's side I was on.
But I closed one eye. Throughout the reconnaisance of the enemy, who didn't even suspect a thing. To the planning, and meetings, and execution.
A good soldier follows orders, after all.
Cohesion day today.
Why does ATI always like to bowl for cohesion days -_-;
I wanted to join the air rifle competition so badly after that. But ended up in the DOTA competition instead hahaha.
Sigh... what is it about firing guns thats so fun? Someone please tell me. Because I wanna know. Its like bowling actually. Irritatingly fun. Not like Dragonboat or Canoeing where you can bloody wack the water. If you hurl the bowling ball full blast chances are you will gutter ball. Same for shooting. Its a game of concentration, stability and nerve.
More artifical intelligence programming and research into the human psyche for gaming.
The conscious mind is a one-track thing. And that part of the mind is the main controller for the player's offensive strategy. He can either concentrate on rushing down, poking, guarding, running away, or mixing up. Any of these will show tell tall signs of what mode he is on. Even mixing up, though purposely erratic, the player will not be able to follow through his combos properly. This is because he is intentionally breaking his own rythms to bluff his opponent. But by consciously breaking his patterns up, he is also breaking up his combo rythm, attack timings and guardings.
Defence on the other hand, can be impulse controlled. This is because it is a reaction. Funny how offensive strategies must be a conscious effort whereas defence is automatic. This is probably because defence is not a strategy on its own. Just like an offensive combo is not a strategy on its own, yet is done with the timings in the player's head going off sub-consciously, much like a good pianist doesn't count his beats.
Similarly, ai cannot be an omni potent multi functioning program. It must have modes, ramdomly or decidedly selected based on situation or random variable, to emulate the player better.
An above average player can lure his enemy into better situations or scenarios for himself to attack his opponent with an advantage, or to get himself out of a disadvatages situation. This can also be emulated by an AI by simply remembering certain variables based on situations that he is in. More variables in the memory equals to better adaptability, and in the end you will have an artificial intelligence capable of learning about the opponent throughout the fight and using the opponent's strategy against him.
So much has happened, I guess.
I guess it was when I found out that some people were reading this blog and didn't tell me about it.
You don't have to tell me for me know, actually.
I don't mind people reading this. But I don't want them to get the wrong idea of what I say. All this is is a log for me to look back on in the future, to relive a bit of the past in order to learn from for a better future. I only with to be in harmony with my peers and friends, and should this jeapordize that, then this will surely stop.
Anyway, its hard to filter stuff out, especially with the stuff thats been happening in camp.
When I found out that the my was a secret. That what everyone knew about it was a lie. I felt honored at first to hold such a responsibility to the future of the battalion. Then it hit me who the enemy was. And I felt like I didn't know who's side I was on.
But I closed one eye. Throughout the reconnaisance of the enemy, who didn't even suspect a thing. To the planning, and meetings, and execution.
A good soldier follows orders, after all.
Cohesion day today.
Why does ATI always like to bowl for cohesion days -_-;
I wanted to join the air rifle competition so badly after that. But ended up in the DOTA competition instead hahaha.
Sigh... what is it about firing guns thats so fun? Someone please tell me. Because I wanna know. Its like bowling actually. Irritatingly fun. Not like Dragonboat or Canoeing where you can bloody wack the water. If you hurl the bowling ball full blast chances are you will gutter ball. Same for shooting. Its a game of concentration, stability and nerve.
More artifical intelligence programming and research into the human psyche for gaming.
The conscious mind is a one-track thing. And that part of the mind is the main controller for the player's offensive strategy. He can either concentrate on rushing down, poking, guarding, running away, or mixing up. Any of these will show tell tall signs of what mode he is on. Even mixing up, though purposely erratic, the player will not be able to follow through his combos properly. This is because he is intentionally breaking his own rythms to bluff his opponent. But by consciously breaking his patterns up, he is also breaking up his combo rythm, attack timings and guardings.
Defence on the other hand, can be impulse controlled. This is because it is a reaction. Funny how offensive strategies must be a conscious effort whereas defence is automatic. This is probably because defence is not a strategy on its own. Just like an offensive combo is not a strategy on its own, yet is done with the timings in the player's head going off sub-consciously, much like a good pianist doesn't count his beats.
Similarly, ai cannot be an omni potent multi functioning program. It must have modes, ramdomly or decidedly selected based on situation or random variable, to emulate the player better.
An above average player can lure his enemy into better situations or scenarios for himself to attack his opponent with an advantage, or to get himself out of a disadvatages situation. This can also be emulated by an AI by simply remembering certain variables based on situations that he is in. More variables in the memory equals to better adaptability, and in the end you will have an artificial intelligence capable of learning about the opponent throughout the fight and using the opponent's strategy against him.
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