Finally did the "forbidden training" yesterday.

Went pretty well. Al was a little worried about telling me about because he was afraid shifu would think he's a bad influence haha.

Well he can safely say he tried to persuade me out of it.

So this month my max pullups hit 30. Which is a slight improvement I guess.

Need to push up to 35 next.




Just redownloaded windows media player, cuz some godamned spyware corrupted it previously... and updated icq and msn messnger. Changed messenger's message beep to a very pleasant chord, instead of the usual "BI DI DING!" Sounds so pleasant every time someone msgs me now hahaha not like last time... so irritating.

I had a weird dream just now....

Dreamt that suddenly it was my time to go...

Was abit scared at first.... didn't know what to tell bugger, didn't know how to leave the team so suddenly.

I guess in a few months time, this will inevitably become a reality.

Just wish that damned letter would arrive so I would finally know where the hell I am posted to.

I can't remember when the last time I felt.... was

the last time I laughed at a joke,
the last time I felt sad,
the last time I felt excited,
the last time I felt angry....

Maybe somewhere along the line I found out that if I dealt with these feelings after setbacks, or losses, I could pick myself up so fast, and go again. But getting numb.... wonder if its worth it.

I would never put myself in the victim's position. Some people say fate has put them in a bad place, or god is playing a cruel game on them. I could never accept anything associated with the fact that there's something out there that does something to do you that you cannot do anything about.

These people mourn and bask in their self pity, in their terrible predicament, that they cannot see the positive or the opportunities presented to them where they are. They are the real 'losers' in life.

But maybe sometimes you can get so caught up in "winning" or "losing", that you forget to just "live".

Tiring day....

After yesterday's training I was really looking forward to some slightly more relaxed training... but sensei had other plans for us...

4km warmup then 6 sets of 1km sprint then 1km long pull.

Was bloody irritated today cuz its like almost impossible to catch up with the bloody advantage mold k2. And stupid butt kept cramping.

But kept telling myself that if you push on in shitty conditions I will become stronger both mentally and physically.



Was damn tired after training.... was supposed to go to the gerber's house but.... came home, fell on my bed and took a nap till 7pm plus.

Haiz....

I can't remember when was the last time I sat down and watched the tv for more than 10-20 minutes....

Last night I watched... As my own or something like that....

Damn nice show ah... I like the woman who played the mother alot ;_;

Then there was an actor's workshop with john travolta on arts central... which was... kinda abstract but interesting nevertheless.

Haha but I guess that's that. TV makes you lazy.... :p

Argh.... definately overtrained over these past 2 days....

Rowing in the morning with Al yesterday, then again with YX in the evening.... did 120 pullups altogether...

Then today.... followed sis to gym for fun... plus training.... did 168 pullups... wtf?

My arms really felt like crap during the last few sets.


Worrying about the team again these few days.... exam and test weeks.... attendance like crap. Some who don't even have papers can even go out instead of coming for training.

Maybe they don't know.... some people they just can't fool.
When they give you their "reasons" or "excuses".... some people can read.

The extent of the smile, the shortened sentences, the tilt of the head, the hands movement, the body movement. You can try your best to bluff other people, but in the end not everyone can fool themselves. Sometimes I wish I couldn't read them.... it would be less painful that way.

I wonder if its even possible for me to affect such people? But the greatest irony is those who come out of national service....

Teach you how to become a man? Maybe for some. For some it will teach you how to chao keng, how to be a slacker, how to be irresponsible when possible. Well done, SAF.

Okok enough ranting.... maybe just needed to blow off some steam.... back to the positive :p

Last week's rowing with Al was a real wake up call for me....

I would never have expected the gap in terms of water sense, technique, and fitness to be so drastically apart.

He's a monster... kicked till my legs cramped and pulled till I thought I was going to die just to try to catch up with him for the short 6km that we did.

But the most scary part was at the end... when he asked me to do pullups.



I now know that I've gotten too comfortable during training. I guess you need to see someone who's better then you can slap yourself and say what the heck are you doing.

Been doing 6 sets of 15 pullups during training ever since. Slowly working towards 6 sets of 20.


Then there was the k2 race today at bedok reservoir.

Firstly I had high hopes partnering Kenny. Then having so many balancing problems in that blue boat which is firstly hard to balance in, secondly, I had to adjust my stroke so that the damned thing wouldn't go usntable. wtf?

So yeah, second thoughts. Thought we were screwed... but I still knew that we were going to give them one hell of a fight if we were going to go down.

But today's race set.... was lucky/fantastic in some ways, although we could have done better in others.

Balance was... suprisingly good... and the traingle stroke which I had to do so that th boat would not flip over and which I thought was just plain retarded worked out in the end. In the end it was Kenny who cocked up the balance abit at the end haha, but no worries, we both did our best. Although the starting sucked, and the ending sucked....

Which if we had done better for, that 0.25 seconds behind the NUS k2 pair and the 0.5 seconds behind the team singapore/hcjc pair would have been in our favour instead.

Things are looking up.

Oh yeah, sensei said that they may be starting a safsa canoeing team.

I may just get to be in the "pioneer" batch.

First things first, regetta.

Probably my last stand against the unis with the team. This one's the big one. I don't care about the simple pleasures of victory or the drive of the fight. This race will mark the end of my vow to make an underdog emerge victorious and end the bitter feud between some factions.

Sat morning's sea training was ok.

I didn't get to leisure row. Damnit.

Instead sensei made us do sprinting sets.

He let me use Jaguar too haha yay.

1st set we were supposed to do pickup, then "just finish the rest". So went easy after that.

2nd set onward was all out. Tied with Kenny.

3rd set -6th set 1st. Kenny dropped out at the 5-6th set cuz of his asthma or something.

Beat sensei a couple of sets... then saw him lagging behind for the 4th set and suspected something was up....

Sure enough the bugger was resting to attack for the next set.

Grrr.... he even said that he hadn't rowed for 1 month yet I couldn't beat him argh. Very irritated.


Then tried the new boats. Nice...

But I still prefer Jaguar.





Today's pacing with CD went... moderately ok.

Bugger put me at the exact same position as sensei was in his boat. Could see his cocky smile between sets. argh.









Anyway, seems I forgot to take an off day from training last week. Shit. Training 9 times a week, my legs and arms wanna die liao.

I think I'm just going to lie down for the rest of today.

.... and torture the dog abit hahahah

HISIT program exercises yesterday morning was killer....
I've never walked home from any training so slowly and energyless before. Walking out for lunch was a pain in the ass haha.
Went rowing in the evening. Did 3km warmup then sprints. Met my PB easily at 2:15minutes for 500 metres. The new technique rocks.
Training today was fun. Did sprinting, although felt my right ham very tight... abit scared haha. Statics was fast and we did weights, yay.
Haiz... training tomorrow morning... sunday morning. I think I'll just leisure row tomorrow or something haha.

Shit... my training log for this week haven't type out yet. die liao...


Did 6 sets of 12 pullups during training today, yesterdays pullups didn't affect so much, conditioning is good now.... circuits was fun too. Weights was fun too.

Had to talk about that during debrief today with the guys...

I hate being a downer.

Although its for a good reason. Maybe Bugger's better at it due to experience?

Maybe I just don't believe in that sort of course of action.

Once is enough. Let things go better from now on.

Monday's performance for Prince Edward went well.

I really like the acoustics there. When the whole lounge went silent during the performance you could hear the very slight reverb.

We had to address him as "your royal highness". Which felt kinda lame at first... like I was in some sort of movie or game or something... but after that was ok lah.

During his walk around the panels I was happily chatting with Joyce and Lyuina, then suddenly I heard my name being echoed out almost in tandem by some staff.... then the crowd immediately parted into two neat sections for me to approach him and everyone STARED.... wtf? Haha couldn't really answer his questions too well... he said that I was really good haha. Can't really remember alot of the stuff he asked... I just kept going... thanks and yeah. XD



Today had another performance for the PE as a guest player. Getting abit numb of the song.... this year's lunch time concert publicity wasn't too good... well. The exco is learning...

Makes me worry abit about the team tho... seeing how things coked up so much after we left.

Coughing worse and worse today. Its irritating me abit during running now. If I don't lose focus and regulate breathing I'll confirm KO into a coughing fit.

Did a light warmup before training today called "NAPFA". Haha. Stupid mindef... want me to take again.

Scored full points for every station except 2.4. My hamstrings aching like hell from t3h s3cr3t tr41n1ng, plus cough, plus have to run again during training later = no mood to run liao. So in the end took it easy and did 11mins = 3 points haha.

I think I would have done badly for sit and reach... if jeremy had not taught me the secret method. I, who can not even touch my toes with straight knees unless I hold the stretch for more than 8 seconds, scored 57 for sit and reach. Rank A is like... 51cm. The secret method rocks... and its 100% legit.

I can't imagine doing 30 pullups for napfa when rank A is only... 11. Stopped at 12. I guess its a sort of consideration to those struggling to do even a few... afterall, a couple of years ago I couldn't even do one. I guess I'm not the sort to show off and leave those struggling in the dust? During the 2.4 tried to encourage those I overtook too... haha wtf.




Anyway, need to get the successor and melodies of life ready for monday... school wants me to play for Prince Edward during his visit. Its so weird such an old guy is still being called a "prince" anyway.

Tuesday will be playing for the PE.... haha special guest performance? Shenmue.

I love how they translated the subtle sarcastic habits of japanese conversation....

Medical Officer: If you get hit by a vendeeni disruptor rifle, your skin will evaporate. There is no treatment for evaporation!