Today's run: 12:30mins
May have relaxed abit too much during the warmup lap :x.
Yesterday's canoeing training was pretty insane... 30 times 30 second sprint with 30 seconds rest... thought my arms were going to bloody drop off. But the secret canal is so nice to train in, cause the water is so nice and calm... and after every set I could see the huge "V" behind me.
Race is coming up, and after that, the future of the team is so uncertain. Which worries the hell out of me. Plus, the team synergy is dropping slowly.
A crossroads now, which race to go for? One of them will be for my own personal ambition, the other will be in the hopes to foster better ties for the future of the team.
I'm still uncertain as to which one to take. Maybe after the race and everything is settled will I know.
On a side note, the upper left back was aching like hell when I rowed on the right side today. Lucky it doesn't bug me when I row left side. Still wonder how the heck I managed to sprain it. If it was from canoeing then it would have been both sides, and not just one side, and the water was calm enough for me to avoid any instinctive surge on either side to try to balance.
Think bottom line is .... better warm up better in future.
There's so much to sort out and I don't know where to start.
Too many factors that I can't control, and all these contingency plans are driving me nuts.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Got bored of the usual route, so went exploring for tonight's run.
From home to the church past the prata house in sin ming, 15:48 mins.
Cool down for 9 mins,
Ran back via shunfu then marymount road to home, 13 mins.
Statics next.
Race is next weekend. I hope the rest of the team is doing their own running and training...
From home to the church past the prata house in sin ming, 15:48 mins.
Cool down for 9 mins,
Ran back via shunfu then marymount road to home, 13 mins.
Statics next.
Race is next weekend. I hope the rest of the team is doing their own running and training...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Previous running route was too short.... so scrap the last timing.
New route is one small round and one big round. Start at staircase, run round to bus stop, change track to big round, run till expressway sign.
First day - 12:01 mins
Second day - 12:21 mins (oops XD)
Gotta remember not to put too much pressure. "i'll do my best everyday. It may not be as good as yesterday, or the day before, but it sure as hell will be my best."
Music is a form of communication.
Wanted to miss training today because of the palm burn. But if Jem asked me to go, I won't let him down.
Morale for training is low nowadays. No one can keep at it with the constant suaning. They are here to row because they want to row. They want to row because they love to row. But if you force them to row, you will be killing their proactive nature and indirectly smite the interest for the sport. You can only keep doing something that you enjoy doing. Who would be stupid enough to stay and keep doing something if they don't like it?
Dynamics in the team is getting worse and worse. If something is not done to foster the ties between the rowers, we'll be screwed for the race, regardless if we train like hell. And the race will end with enemies instead of brothers leaving the site.
I know he has his own way of doing things, but from what I see, its not quite working....
There's only so much I can do.
New route is one small round and one big round. Start at staircase, run round to bus stop, change track to big round, run till expressway sign.
First day - 12:01 mins
Second day - 12:21 mins (oops XD)
Gotta remember not to put too much pressure. "i'll do my best everyday. It may not be as good as yesterday, or the day before, but it sure as hell will be my best."
Music is a form of communication.
Wanted to miss training today because of the palm burn. But if Jem asked me to go, I won't let him down.
Morale for training is low nowadays. No one can keep at it with the constant suaning. They are here to row because they want to row. They want to row because they love to row. But if you force them to row, you will be killing their proactive nature and indirectly smite the interest for the sport. You can only keep doing something that you enjoy doing. Who would be stupid enough to stay and keep doing something if they don't like it?
Dynamics in the team is getting worse and worse. If something is not done to foster the ties between the rowers, we'll be screwed for the race, regardless if we train like hell. And the race will end with enemies instead of brothers leaving the site.
I know he has his own way of doing things, but from what I see, its not quite working....
There's only so much I can do.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Ultimate plan to improve running:
- Get Asics high-arch shoes.
- Breathe deeper.
- Run like a madman.
- Tune hair to be more streamlined :p
- Tune out pain and tiredness.
- Tune in the wind and speed.
- Do more squats to strengthen legs.
- Today's lap: 8:21 mins - run faster than that every next time.
- Enjoy the damn run.
- Get Asics high-arch shoes.
- Breathe deeper.
- Run like a madman.
- Tune hair to be more streamlined :p
- Tune out pain and tiredness.
- Tune in the wind and speed.
- Do more squats to strengthen legs.
- Today's lap: 8:21 mins - run faster than that every next time.
- Enjoy the damn run.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
I'm a lousy runner.
I've been running alot, pretty often too, and I'm still stuck above 10 mins for 2.4km run.
So confused.
Every time I push myself, and get into the psych, I'll feel a little bit of that familiar excitement from long ago. Perhaps up to today, my self restraint to prevent me from falling into that pit as I did that time has been limiting my performance.
I'll find myself looking through those eyes and loving it, the feeling of being invulnerable, like a bomb about to explode at any time. Anger feeds on anger and anger likes it.
But sometimes I wonder, if it is possible to harness that power and control it to use it to gain greater heights? Instead of fearing it, I could use it, learn to control it to my advantage.
Then again, I won't know if I will be able to control it, because once it takes over, there's no more conscious thought involved, only reaction, impulses and the desire to fight.
I can only hope, that as my current persona grows and changes, that that persona of myself will also change, not for the worse, but for the better.
Ironically, it is the fear and regret of that persona, that increases my awareness of my own thoughts and feelings at present; without which, I would probably not be able to comprehend things as I now do.
Is it really so good to know so many things? Is it not more enjoyable to be led by much simpler things?
I look at the people around me, and admire them.
For their straight-forward thinking, and the ability to see things from one perspective and be content. Never worrying about the other sides to the cube.
For the ability to get angry without worrying about the consequences.
Every time I feel myself going there, I have to fight it. And it drives me mad because at times I want to just let loose, but just the thought of what might happen...
Many times in the past it has played in my head. Things that would be so easy to do, yet I would not know how to answer for.
I still remember that match. When I snuck in a cheap snap punch to his collar bone, and he staggered back with the expression of pain on his face, from there little by little, I began to want to go further.
There are some barriers that a man cannot break down. Because once they are down, there is not enough stopping force to restrict one's actions into the safe bounds of what is ethical and what is right.
So thus is my conundrum.
Which walls to build back up? And which to leave down?
I've been running alot, pretty often too, and I'm still stuck above 10 mins for 2.4km run.
So confused.
Every time I push myself, and get into the psych, I'll feel a little bit of that familiar excitement from long ago. Perhaps up to today, my self restraint to prevent me from falling into that pit as I did that time has been limiting my performance.
I'll find myself looking through those eyes and loving it, the feeling of being invulnerable, like a bomb about to explode at any time. Anger feeds on anger and anger likes it.
But sometimes I wonder, if it is possible to harness that power and control it to use it to gain greater heights? Instead of fearing it, I could use it, learn to control it to my advantage.
Then again, I won't know if I will be able to control it, because once it takes over, there's no more conscious thought involved, only reaction, impulses and the desire to fight.
I can only hope, that as my current persona grows and changes, that that persona of myself will also change, not for the worse, but for the better.
Ironically, it is the fear and regret of that persona, that increases my awareness of my own thoughts and feelings at present; without which, I would probably not be able to comprehend things as I now do.
Is it really so good to know so many things? Is it not more enjoyable to be led by much simpler things?
I look at the people around me, and admire them.
For their straight-forward thinking, and the ability to see things from one perspective and be content. Never worrying about the other sides to the cube.
For the ability to get angry without worrying about the consequences.
Every time I feel myself going there, I have to fight it. And it drives me mad because at times I want to just let loose, but just the thought of what might happen...
Many times in the past it has played in my head. Things that would be so easy to do, yet I would not know how to answer for.
I still remember that match. When I snuck in a cheap snap punch to his collar bone, and he staggered back with the expression of pain on his face, from there little by little, I began to want to go further.
There are some barriers that a man cannot break down. Because once they are down, there is not enough stopping force to restrict one's actions into the safe bounds of what is ethical and what is right.
So thus is my conundrum.
Which walls to build back up? And which to leave down?
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