These few days theres so much to do yet so little time.

I think I have too many constructive hobbies... which should be good, I guess. Project 2 still doesn't have a name yet. Poor bugger. I was thinking of "Zwei" which means two in german... and it sounds cool and jap. Its like katagana, the word has more feeling, unlike english words.

I feel sick and tingly so there's no running tonight either. Hope this damn thing goes away by tomorrow.

Digipen? I dunno. Game designers really have no life. Then again, everyone's definition of 'having a life' varies drastically. Some people think training often is their life, some people think clubbing is their life, some people think playing games is their life, some people think just being free is their life. And each of these people will look at the other and ask if they have a life.

Perhaps I need to do what I do because I want to do it and not because I need to do it. Working on a project team sucked in school because I had to model out stuff that needed to be modeled out... not stuff that I wanted to do. When I had a chance to benchmark something, or do something that no one's seen before - that's when I'd do my best work.

I still remember the time when we had to design a flash game, and I went out to program a whole sidescrolling fighting environment in actionscript. With gravity, unique hit velocities, sliding friction, and reaction velocities. Special moves and air combos in a sidescroller. That was fun shit.

Maybe that's why I broke away from everything after O's to pursue games design. You can't frickin benchmark F maths or physics. And even if you do no one will give a shit because it won't be fun. Unless you do something like the new water charboh.

Even if you get 100/100 for amath, people will at the most go "omg good for you."

Maybe I just like creating things... and hate doing things that everyone else is doing.

Some people love to follow the order of things around them, others prefer to rewrite those rules.

Its an audacious thought, but I want to be that drop of water to cause ripples to resonate throughout the entire pond. No... I want to be the LEVEL 99 SHINKUU HADOUKEN AIMED DOWNWARD INTO THE SEA TO CAUSE FRICKING SCARY WAVES TO EXPLODE IN ALL DIRECTIONS AND WIPE OUT ENTIRE CONTINENTS!

To cause change in other people in a positive manner. That's something deep to strive for. Is it even possible?

This is possibly the most extreme opposite persona to my predominant one in the past.

I like this one better. It feels better.