frickin busy ah!

Almost no time to write today.

Its funny how I told myself a degree is something untalented people need to get a job because their portfolio sucks when design is concerned... and here I am applying for design in ntu.

The irony here is... that I'll be getting into the course due to portfolio and not grades... wtf!

But the best joke is... my portfolio and demo reel can easily blow out their graduate's work out of the water. omgwtf!

;_;

I have a bad feeling I'll be wasting a few years of my time.

But oh well, there's canoeing! XD


Mom found the rjc of design. Some harvard equivalent design school. Top games design university in the world. And why am I not suprised that my work also landed me a spot there.

But the fees will amount to about 100k in 4 years. wtf?

I am not going to let my parents waste that kind of money on this degree. A scholarship has too many shitty implications.

Quite worried... because she's being hyper supportive about this again... just like during Os... and I ran all the way off-tangent then. Right now I need to not run off-tangent just for the sake of being a rebel without a cause. Its hard to be true to yourself when everything seems to be the same as last time.

Last time I thought that everyone could frickin study... no point being moronic and stick with the dumb mob. Now... it seems that anyone can get into a design course... or degree for that matter.

I should stick to music... that's one thing that not any tom dick or pussy can do.


Ahhh but why do I have to be so outstanding? Hah, if anyone thinks that they don't want to be outstanding they can go screw themselves.


Gymed today with the village bicycle... saw molester. Irritating.

Village bicycle tries to attack private parts when he's in danger... that gay! Like some defenseless rodent that has no choice but to fight in a desperately cheap manner.

And he's in hyper work mode again. Wth for? I dunno... does being busy give some people purpose in life, or make them feel more outstanding? I don't understand.

Heck, I don't even understand myself right now so I shouldn't even be worried about other people at this point in time.

And I feel so stupid when Dennis tells me stuff that I said before I entered ns. My god... NS really makes you dumber! Its ridiculous. How could I possibly think so deeply then? Everything was so well thought out and calculated. Right now I feel so stupid.

If I was the person I was back then I would have an answer. To alot of things.