Had an interesting talk with da ge at ksl just now.

You wouldn't believe he had such an "adventurous" past. Malaysian military for 3 years, then the police force. Of which he slammed repeatedly haha.

He asked if NS here was 'fun' or not. I told him that it wasn't for me, despite my stand that it is an important aspect of the country's defense. When asked why, I told him "Too many rules."

His final words to me were "even when you come out into the working world, it will be the same thing."

And it pissed me off that he was right to a certain extent. But yet, it will not be that bad. Heck, its not even that bad now compared to when I just started out.

Its weird how people can change.

In my final year in high school, I prided myself in being the perfect example for the student population as the head of the prefectorial board.

Meticulous. Perfect. I lived and upheld every rule with pride and got along with every single teacher and principal. I felt sorry for those who could not live up to these standards. The poor slackers who somehow managed to get their shirts un-tucked, or forgot to wear the badge. Even at times when no one would find out, I would still stick by principle. Not once did I assume that I was above the law even if I had the final say.

Up to this day, I'm not sure why I made such a drastic change. Maybe I got bored? Maybe I didn't see a point. Maybe I was finally disillusioned. What did I get out of it?

I played their game perfectly. I played their system perfectly.

There's an intimacy you can only achieve by upholding a system and looking at every line of code and what its for.

Maybe after completing that game, I got bored of it. Just like all the other games I played.

There are gamers who get bored of playing games and look for other games to play, or give up playing games at all.

And there are gamers who get bored of playing games and decide to go and create the ultimate game for themselves. Something that they know that they will enjoy.

This, I suppose is how I decided to take control of my life.

Those who have no real desire or aspiration can continue to live playing someone else's game.

But I will make others play mine.

On retrospect. This looks like something a mass-murderer would say, like from saw 3 or something hahaha. Oh nos I dun wanna become a lunatic.

Ahh but I'm such a gentle person. No way things could sway that way. ^_^;