Training today went better than usual. Less interruptions -_-;.

Did the 30-30-30 exercise. Result was slightly less than what I had estimated. Purposely used the heavier boat to try and handicap myself but they were still not up to par. There was one set when I was forced to pull harder to maintain relative position, but other than that, still have some way to go.

Anyway, all the shouting to try and make sure all boats could hear the commands... made my throat a little sore... feels so familiar. Luckily I was using mostly diaphragm. Felt so much like yelling at times, out of frustration when things were moving too slowly.

But no matter what, I still know better. Been there, done that. I've been that jackass dictator that would scream and knock everyone down if the line wasn't straight, or if someone fidgeted. That was what discipline meant to us back then, because that was how we were taught, so it was how we thought worked best. Its funny how a tkd class can be more scary than any officer's tekan session.

To force things to be done, it works. But its a system on the path to inefficiency from day one. Force someone to do something and he will give you 80%. Let him be the one to choose to do it, and he will give you 100%.

Besides, right now, I don't need them to see that side of me. Because I dread him the most.