Sometimes, no matter how well you plan something, something will come along and screw everything up. The best plan is a flexible one.

When people say that outfield brings the worse out of people, they couldn't be more right. I knew I wasn't seeing the whole picture, but to find out that those who are supposed to be working closest to you had so many hidden agendas... its just disappointing. And the two other heads throwing responsibility back and forth was illaudable.

Its sad, how much duplicity was uncovered in those few hours. War is ugly, everyone fights for survival. And now, more than ever, I know that in times of crisis, don't count on the people whom you are told to count on.

I refuse to accept that people will only help you if it serves to help themselves in the future, directly or indirectly.

But sometimes, its just so hard.