Long run tonite to sin ming and back: 29:43mins

Was rehearsing my lines for the q and a presentation last night with everyone else, when gary came up and asked "why rehearse so much?".

"Memorize too much and you won't be able to feel it, man. Its gotta come from the heart."

I remember the time when I banned the reading of scores for all piano ens concerts back in school. Likewise, I believed that one should feel his music, instead of read it from paper like a music box.

Ironically, that would mean that the player would have to memorize the piece.

There's no alternative, actually. For music, you either side read, memorize, or go impromptu, which would be impossible if you want to play a fixed score.

Through memorization, I make notes for emotion and accentuation, I make notes on what to feel, when to feel it. How to slow down and portray sadness, and how to go loud to portray excitement.

In the end, maybe I was the one who couldn't feel his own music. I was just a more complicated music box.

But how do you play from the heart?

Is it even possible?

How do you answer a question from the heart?

An honest, frank answer? Is that what it means to answer from the heart?

In that case, then for the good of everyone, I'd better keep all answers from the heart to myself.

Perhaps someone more simple-minded, optimistic, or naive would be able to answer from the heart in an acceptable manner.

But for some people....

Bluffing everyone into thinking that what you say is from your heart is the only way to go.

The scary part is when you become so good at bluffing, that you fool even yourself.

Then your bluffs will become truths even to yourself.

And when they become truths to you, you think that its coming from your heart.

That is how I answer from my heart.