Insomnia.

Trying to get enough rest and recover from training is becoming more and more challenging these past few days. Its difficult to fall asleep, because once my eyes are closed, my brain starts thinking about how to improve the quality of training with the dragons, about how to stay in control, how to not seem like an ass, how to sync with ben... Perhaps part of it is excitement, or hope for what we have infront of us at this juncture, perhaps it is worry. Worry that Ben will not support me, worry that Boss won't let me off from work early so I can make it on time for training, worry that canoeing will eat my time away from dragonboat.


Was smsing Hong yesterday. He's given alot of excellent suggestions regarding team building and training, and I'm suprised at how much he's learnt and knows after these years in ns. Perhaps its his post? He alleviated my mind somewhat.... knowing that my senior is supporting me behind this, especially my big bro who inspired me and challenged me during my early years in dragonboat. He was the one whom I felt would have turned the team around, He would have led and inspired the team to new heights, but alas, as far as AGMs go, his was the first when such cock ups occured.