Had an off day from training today. Whew, I'm about aching everywhere.... need to condition faster.

And I was already stressing out about my timings for the coming national championship canoeing races... now I am supposed to lead this team to get something for this december's regetta. To think of all the chances Ben gave me to lead which I messed up...

Flargh, no more dwelling on the past. I trust Louis and Jo, and Jo trusts Zar and Zars nice so thats enough for me. Wonder why Zar and I never talk much... Anyway, we had our first commitee meeting just now, went pretty well, I know Jo's trying to keep quiet for awhile but she'll probably open up soon. heh, what I need to do too.

So, Hong, our dreams are finally in my hands to make a reality. I know that its not good to fear failure, but sometimes that fear can drive one on.