I lost.
 
Damn old geezer.
 
When the water is calm, I can catch, I can pull.
 
When its choppy, I lose feeling.
 
Not enough training in choppy water.
 
And sensei's constant suanings.
 
 
Sometimes I feel so retarded. I want to beat these buggers who have been rowing for so many years when I've spent only 3 months in the K1.
 
And I feel like all I'm doing is not enough.
 
And I am supposed to lead this team when I am this pathetic?
 
 
 
 
 
Met up with Hong in the aft.
 
It was nice my bro again.
 
Remembered the time when we would meet up everyday to train. How I said I wanted to beat him.
 
He was the one who kept me in the team for all these years.
 
Yet I couldn't beat him by the time he left.
 
And it seems after he left I had forgotten my promise to him.
 
But today I remembered.
 
I still have a target to reach.