Felt really crappy this morning.

Training on sat, sun, weights and circuit on monday. Not enough sleep, muscle pains, blister on foot.

Circuit rocks, feel so alive. Sprinted until I felt a tight pain in my hamstrings bwahahaha. I'm really enjoying not having any knee pains at the moment. The dragonboaters were setting up the booth while the canoeists were doing weights. Wish I could join them... but the race is in august... as Robin says... "Charge!!!"

The HS game project looks to be coming along very nicely. Environments looking better, character animations are... scary. Damn good. And I'm in love with the main theme. Probably my best work yet, I kept playing it over and over again at work this morning... can't stop hearing those strings in my head.

Robin's insane... he wants to set aside 100k-200k to set up a studio for me to do music in once the new budget comes in. Which is pretty cool, but I can't imagine anything amounting to that much....

Club crawl these two days. I remember looking through the forms which we make those who sign up fill up. Past ccas, short description of yourself, past schools, attitude, mindset. So many interesting answers... but in the end... how many actually have what it takes.

Talked with willy on the way back. It seems those who actually realize whats going on in the team just can't bear to stay on. Willy, Stephen... What we have left are those who have their overly accentuated sense of pride; which could be misguided? How can you be proud of a team which is so messed up at times? What we have left are those who find the training to be "acceptable", and not "super siong".

The girls have their sisterhood, and although the guys lost it for a while back, we're slowly getting our btotherhood back.

I always knew that I was responsible for the deterioration somehow.

Now I know, I didn't give the guys a chance. I was so set on being sad, missing hong, missing the seniors, that I didn't take the time to give back to the team what I took. I've always seen that dwelling on the past too much makes it difficult for future growth, but I never expected myself to be guilty of something I look down upon so much.

But is it too late now?

Its up to the team to decide.