There were days when the team was all that I could think about.

I remember Jon's eyes when he asked me what he should do. He had grown tired of it, yet he loved it so much. He was crying.

How do you describe a feeling that you want to do something so much because you love it, yet you have grown so tired of it?

If I could express myself normally I would probably cry too.

Some of the guys think that like all the other ord'rs I would have quit long ago close to ORDing.

But I guess that's the difference between the guys and me. They came for the attachment, I just love the sport. I never joined the team for freedom in army, I had contingency after contingency for that. It was but a step for the big picture, but now it will lead to other things, instead of the original plan.

Now I just need to ensure that I've taught the junior exco well so that they can lead to the best of their own ability. And despite the obvious conflicts with one party, dog and weizhen can get along now.

Its been long. And I am relieved that this task is coming to an end. Giving dog more freedom to spread his wings out more often while taking training means that I have more free time to do everything else that I want to do.

Unlike sports, music is one thing that isn't the same as time goes by, and I will never get tired of it. Plus its the only means for me to truly feel.

Project2 is coming along well. Zwei can walk around and crouch, his cape animates so smoothly. He will be the benchmark for 2d fighting game characters for years to come.