There was a time when I would have joined the team when someone like nasiman specifically asked for me to join the team. But I guess now its too late for that.

Like Tezuka said, someone who has lost his fighting spirit doesn't deserve to fight alongside the team.

I remember this feeling. When ST left the team, and Hong had graduated. That was when I went to canoeing. Too let down by those who didn't share the same passion as me.

Maybe I need to do the same now.

Perhaps the fire for db will rekindle in the future like it did last time, when I eventually decided to do right what I saw everyone else doing wrong.

Problem with doing something for passion is that once that passion has waned, you don't know how to continue.

If I could cry, maybe I'd look like Jonny did.