Last night's run: 20 mins. I guess the short stride length was a little pressuring to the knees. Ate alot... huhuhu.

Back with the team today at last, to find out what is going on.

Despite the huge mess, its good to see some form of order and movement surfacing.

I guess I had to be away for the dog to finally open his wings. This makes me wonder if me staying on would hamper his further development.

Ultimately I just want to make sure that they can go on without me. Dependency is one of the rules of power, but I really don't care about that anymore. Sometimes there are bigger things.

The exco really is an amusing bunch.

First night back with nteam too. Now that I've had both teams merge, its even easier for me to leave things in nasi's hands.

Went to ksl after training at night for duckrice and shared a plate of damn awesome but oily carrot cake with Alvin. Yumm....

I don't know if I should stay. The prestige of being in the 'natio nal team' doesn't appeal anymore. Partly because I've represented the country before anyway and single handedly spent more of the government's money on that trip than an entire team for the sea games.

But the main reason is that if I stay, I'll be starting the cycle all over again, and quite frankly this is a game that isn't worth replaying that many times.

Only thing would be the team. But right now I feel like being a loner for awhile.

Maybe I just need more time to think things through.