What is it about closetted people that makes them scary?

Perhaps when people suspect that a mask or decoy is there, they become insecure as to the authenticity of the relationship.

Perhaps in this aspect, I might probably the scariest person I know.

Weirdos have to worry about their sexuality. Not that I have a problem there... give me a french babe anytime huhuhu.

I have to worry about so many other things.

What I might do, and what I might not do.

What if the instincts return.

Or what if he somehow takes over me again.

I can't believe a dog triggered it this time. Left arm push block, right arm striking position while searching for target, all simultaneously. For a second, the thought of knife handing through the metal grilling and into it's eye flashed into my mind before I consciously cut it off and easied the arms.

Recent events have not been good for me. Then again I suppose that I should be thankful.

Would it be better to be bullied as a nerd and have that inferiority complex fuel the drive to improve oneself?

Or would it be better to be able to stop the bullies, at the cost of being a potential threat to friends and family?

Ironically, the first was the path to the second.

People with gender issues have it easy. But perhaps in a way, we all have something to hide. Some secrets darker than others.

We all have faces that we don't want people to see, don't we?

They may know about him, but rumours are harmless. Until they see his face and realize just how scary he is.


There have been those who have tried to control the monster. But end up having the tables turned on them.

The only one who can stop him, is the one who made him.



DOA 3 today. The move priorities are based on the triangular module instead of the linear module which I am more used to. Collision boxes aren't tied down properly for upper regions during crouching stances, which is quite silly, but works for their triangular module again.

Was quite suprised to see the stupid hamster slowly learning to avoid the zoning traps that I set up. He can think afterall... managed to draw with me in the end on my first day with this engine, quite impressive. Was occupied trying to understand the counter/reversal system towards the end, though. Failure experiment...

He would make a good dota player, though not sure if he would be able to match up to zic. Intelligence and cunning are seperate attributes afterall, even if they may be linked.