If alcohol gives normally quiet people the confidence to speak and be sociable... it does the complete opposite to me.

I hate stuttering and catching myself saying the wrong things.

Adw's drunken state is the safest and most comical. Imagine this huge guy breaking out in random high pitched giggles. Frickin hilarious.

Anyway I'm sort of losing my patience with weirdo fags. I swear the next asshole who tries to follow me around or randomly touches me is going to get a nice suprise instead of my usual politically correct turn down. I guess I was never the sort to get into an argument into stupid things. Just straight down to the point.

Girls are still always welcome though. :p

I can't believe she did that to me on the stage... just thinking about it is enough to... hahaha




Gym today. For some reason I remembered those solemn days in school during lunch break when I would sprint to the weights room or gym then rush back for lecture/tutorial. None of the classmates understood. But they were all geeks/nerds to begin with... :p

I miss school godamnit.

Sometimes it scares me that that may be the only reason why I want to go to uni.

Nothing wrong with wanting to go and play anyway! Huhuhu.



Feeling creative today. Nobuo's music is inspirational. Its sad that I still have to depend on his music to kick start my creative drive. Is there such a thing is creative independance?

I suppose as matter cannot be created nor destroyed, the same thing could probably be said about the creative constant.


[stateno 9999] creative drive
type = varadd
trigger1 = ((inspiration > 0 && source = 1) || (random idea > 0 && frustration != 0))
v= 23; creative constant
value = ifelse(inspiration > 0, (inspiration), (random idea)