Sometimes I think that I've been too nice to the dog. Many problems could have been circumvented if I would have just been the damn bad guy.

I didn't ever want to go near that model of leadership and mentoring, because it reminded me of so many things that I hated about incapable leaders.

But I suppose there must always be a balance. I could have been too nice.

I think back on how Sensei, Chua and Ben all kicked my ass when I screwed up or made me really realize what the heck I did wrong.

But all I did was put everything in a positive perspective.

It was compensation for everything that I was trying to steer away from my own life, too.



But now, I suppose that phase is over.

I've had to wake up a part of me that I really do hate... but like this, I'm bound by no more restrictions, and I can move anything once again.

I wonder if I'm preventing dog from growing on his own by continually helping him out time and time again like this.

Give a man fish and he'll come back to you for more, teach him how to fish and he'll grow tired of fish.


This scenario is similar to one of my previous simulations anyway, it'll be such a cinch to solve.

Its weird seeing through them again. But this time, I suppose I'm not as disappointed as I never had too high hopes anyway.



Though, in the aspect of the sport. Some of the guys have grown so much. Its just a pity that there are too few of them.

Taught Howe my ultimate technique to maintain a fixed timing no matter how much the back is pushing. It may seem like an easy thing, but it really is quite impossible to do accomplish when the rest of the boat was pushing the timing like they were without the technique.

Containment vision takes practice, but I'm sure he'll be able to master it some day.