Alot of thought lately about the team and the exco; past present and future.

Quite disappointed that Jem thinks Jackson's batch was quite successful. Then again I probably can't blame him. He was new in the team then, and still didn't have proper perspective on things. I'm not sure if he would be able to keep the batch together, less do a better job than Justin. It would be different no doubt, but an improvement is questionable.

I know that he dislikes the system of a voting for the fact that Natalie won the girls over and eventually broke them apart. But he fails to see that that system was the one that also won him his own captaincy. Ironic, isn't it?

Over the years I have seen which systems work and which do not, and how to modify and manipulate them to be most ideal, despite what others can only grasp on the surface of things. Voting is the most apparent solution. But carried out in the way that Nat and Jem won, would be disastrous.

If carried out properly, perhaps Jem wouldn't have even led the team that year.

If the coach/exco decides, many will be unhappy. If a voting is held, some will be unhappy, but at least less than the other alternative. But the key to the voting is to keep it secret during the process. That is the fatal flaw that screwed the voting up for that year.

It will help those who are truly capable to surface. Of course there are times when not so capable ones surface, but that is usually in the absence of the more capable ones. And there are the freak accidents like political manipulators. That is when the pre-voting guidance in the counsel system comes into play. That is where the coach or captain comes into play to help the right candidates surface and to guide them away from the potential threats.

I could explain all this to them, but there would be no point. Too much explanation for something that they can only see from their perspective. Those who haven't led will never really see things in proper perspective for themselves. Those who have led 2-3 times are only just beginning to understand. I have led 7 clubs/bodies/communities/teams and I don't claim to know everything; and given their obvious lack of emotional and interpersonal understanding, how would they even come close to this understanding?

I try to help some along. To mentor, to teach and aid and help understand. As a friend, as a mentor. Sometimes they learn certain aspects and I am happy for them. Ultimately I want them to take everything and make it their own.

Egos crushed, jealousy ensues. There will always be those who are sour over elections. The immature ones who harbor bitterness. But it is precisely of their ego and immaturity that prevents them from achieving the spot which they seek so much and blinds them from understanding.

It took time, but I take pride in winning each of them over, despite the varying amounts of pride, ego, and lack of eq even in the most presumably intelligent individuals. Just because the one after me requires more time to learn, they judge him harshly. Yet I cannot help but wonder if they themselves could do a better job?

I didn't think so.

Captaincy is one aspect that a certain side of me never waned. I see through each of them further than they can see themselves. And the tides are mine to move without them even knowing.

But it is because they do not know that I am moving everything for them that they fail to see the most important steps.

There are flaws in the current system. I have seen every possible outcome since the previous elections for every viable candidate and know that the first step was the best despite the resistance in the system. People will always highlight the problems. But they fail to see that this solution is already the most error-free given the haphazard variables.

It is already the most optimal. Surely they do not expect me to sign on db?

Nevertheless, the next step will optimize it.