Shit... indo trip is a no go for me.

And I was looking forward to it so much?

Duty to country. Sigh. It should be easy do the right thing instead of the thing you want to do, when you don't have a choice? But that doesn't seem to tbe the case at all.

Guess that means I'll be going for national champs after all then.



Rest day today.

Something wrong, I'm going mad.

Can't even play the piano properly and get a proper recording for the treant theme.

Are all geniuses crazy? Sometimes I wonder if having to think out of the box on such an often bases will warp one's perception of reality.

Every route will have its pros and cons, its perks and adverse effects.


Maybe blocking the disappointment of the trip is a good thing, but right now i can't feel anything else because of this.

I need to get away someplace far away. Sort everything out. Wanted to climb today, but my right middle finger felt like spraining on me again.

I like climbing, makes my forearms and fingers sore so I can't make a proper fist. And when I struggle to make a fist, it feels weak, which is a strange feeling. Sometimes I want to forget what its like to feel it coarsing through my arms and knuckles.