I forgot that if you want a system to be changed. YOU GOTTA BE THE ONE TO DO IT!

I hate it when they try to pull rank to override other people. I don't give a damn about that bullshit. In the field you can use it to issue commands, but when it comes to my work, I am the captain of the vessel. If I choose to pick up and take ownership of a project, it is my own personal goal and guarantee that the job will be done well - and every project will get the same treatment.

I'm glad that we saw some level ground just now. Not really too fond of getting sucked into the presentation tomorrow, but I supposed it will save everyone a whole lot of trouble. Besides, its nice to be the one talking and have the warrants backing you up for a change.

Wasn't quite expecting what happened in the end, I suppose ocs does teach some camaraderie. Then again it was probably successful upbringing. Made me remember that camp is actually quite a nice place, especially after all the hard work I put in to make it that nice. Been away from camp and been around people who hate camp so much that I begun to dread it for... the wrong reasons.

Gym today was damn good. Haven't felt that shacked from gym since forever. Of course there's that extra motivation now. I've just confirmed that I've been slacking off for way too long. Bonsai's been pushing harder too. I just hope that his branches don't break, cuz for some reason some people won't listen to general logic and wish to test and injure themselves further. Kinda reminds me of when I injured my wrist and still... doh. But that's besides the point!

I think that I've been taking things too seriously.

Look too deep into the water and you will only see darkness, too shallow and you will see yourself, it is in the middle, just beneath the surface, that you can see what has been staring at you since forever.

Remembered why I don't like to talk about it. Cause I really want to forget about it and have one less thing to worry about.