Usual route today: 12:15 mins

Small round was 40 seconds slower then usual pace cause I intended to have a good warmup and slack run.

Went to a secluded area after the run to practice some kata. Practiced some of the banned moves. After 2-3 consecutive attempts I'm out of breath already. But it felt good doing those movements again. You can really feel the power from the movements, unlike primitive punching hooking and uppercutting. Probably because I can channel more energy into them cause I practiced them more than punches anyway. But oh well.

My kicking is a little rusty. A little.




Whew.

Looks like the only time that I can log stuff is when she's tired out from playing the whole day and is asleep.

I really should stop playing with her while walking. Today I almost tripped on a step, fell into a drain and walked into chair...




Sigh. Have to tell the team tomorrow.

Sucks la. A part of me really doesn't want to go. Yet a part of me does. Kinda sad that you have to be separated from some people to realize how important they are in your life or how they keep you going.

But I'd rather bear this pain than to not know them at all. I've learned that shielding yourself from everything- from pain and hurt isn't the way to advance. Its giving in to fear. True strength comes when we face our fears head-on, for what we believe in.

And even if some people think that training may just be for body or for ego, its more than that. Its a challenge, for yourself. And a challenge to those whom we train with.

Its a constant reminder that you'll never get anywhere if you don't challenge yourself or expect more of yourself. Pain and hurt is like a double edged sword. It can stop you by making you fear it, or you can use it as the reference point to expect more of yourself.

I was brought up as a fighter. And even though I stopped fighting in some ways. I'll never stop fighting in other ways. As Ck said, "Its in our blood." Heh.


Anyway its just for 3 weeks. 3 weeks to learn things that I'll never be able to learn if I'm stuck here. Ambassadors, all rounders. They are supposed to be the best. Its a once in a lifetime opportunity to go and learn as much as possible from all of them.



And there goes my hope of taking a break before flying off.

Job requests keep coming in. Sigh...