Sometimes you run away - to find yourself.

At times, circumstance seems to want to force you to run away, at times it seems as though running away would be such a challenge. At times, it may seem scary, illogical to move out of your comfort zone.

But that's the way things go. Everything around you may seem normal - according to everyone else around you. But something in your gut just tells you that this isn't for you.

Many people lose the ability to hear that gut feeling. Because they have shut it off so many times, it becomes an automatic process. Some people hear it faintly, but overdo it because they lack the proper level of sensitivity.

Its only logical in where we live in. We are taught to follow and abide by rules. We are taught to accept that A is better than B, more is better than enough, until life becomes a process of thoughtless yet logical sequence of repeated patterns.

Sometimes you do well in society's patterns and you get praised, you get the recognition you thought you'd get. But when you really think about it, the happiness is on the surface.

We are all born differently. Some are more obedient, some are more resilient. Some are born one way and die one way, some are born to change drastically. Some base life on those around them, some have stronger instincts. Some need to be meticulous, some seem to live to rebel.

I look at what I was in the past and what I am now, and wonder, which one is the real me?

Perfect and meticulous, noisy and angry, or the one who is always in control.

For harmony to be achieved, ying and yang must be balanced. To find that balance, one must venture into each extreme.

This year will be the next stage, the next level. I hope that I make the right choice.