So I met up with Si again the other day for a match.

I told myself last year that I would beat this bastard. Yet the operation had made me slacken in training. That asshole went passive stanced counter mode for the entire match. And I couldn't do break him out of it.

If I had a training partner to do reaction drills with, I would so own his ass though.

He asked me: "What are you protecting?"

I couldn't answer him. Weird. Maybe a long time ago, I was fighting to prove something to myself. Something that I no longer need to do because I already know who I am in life. Maybe at long last, I have made peace with that part of me which scared the shit out of me. The only thing that keeps me going right now is the high of the fight. But that is one feeling that must be kept under control at all times.

It seems to be forever since I had last felt that side of me. And luckily, no more street fights have been occurring, if you can call that a fair fight in the first place. Untrained people really have no idea about how to move. Oh well.



Ah yes, the stupid zouk card arrived at last. Its nice not having to pay a thing to get into velvet underground. Even the stamp is special. Its kinda stupid that I'm a member when I don't really club often. But there's big potential in the genre of music in this scene and it will be good to get more immersed in it. Plus this kinda music is easy shit to do.

Was good to be with the moose and Jem from canoeing in school from last time. Was nice to catch up with him after these few years. Saw alot of familiar faces too. Nic, Uncle, and Kenny whom I have no idea why he was with nitek kia. Ahahha the most weird spotting was captain lionel and all the instructors from his coy. Wtf commandos in the house la. He's suck a cool OC.


The type of girl that learns to ride bikes is truly something to be respected. The lone charboh today was turning and leaning lower than the rest of the humji ass guys. Singaporean guys really have no balls, or rather, some girls have bigger balls hahah.


Finally back on chemical C today. It seems I still have the compounds for the old combination again. Though I forgot how much of which to add. Had to refer to the old notes. New cycle, higher cycle.