Went pacing with NTU on tuesday. Had a good set, came in kissing the rear of their second fastest T1. Then went down to row with Jag yesterday and did terribly. No concentration at all, and I let the fatigues of the day before's rowing and pullups affect me. 5, 10, 3, 3 seconds behind him. I'm screwed. I need to find my concentration again, then I'll beat him, just like last time, and maybe, beat NTU too.

Terrible performance yesterday. Then went to school for land training and died during circuits. Anthony told me the race program was out, but was paiseh to ask the hwachong coach to take a look, so called Yiwen instead.

I'm in lane 4 for the ivp t1-500metres race. And they misspelled my name so my competitors shall know me as Reuben Lee now...

Scared... what if I can't find my concentration? What if I lose to NTU, or Jag in the finals if I even qualify? What if even after training 9 times a week I still can't clinch a medal? I'm screwed. Talked to Oliver on the way to training yesterday, and we talked about concentration and flexibility. His race psyche is pretty good, I think I'll use it.

I must take a nap in the afternoon and rest up well, then go and beat NTU later today.