I'm scared.

Tomorrow's the race.

K1, 1000 metres.

Usually I'm calm as shit before the race...

In the dragonboat, I trust my team mates, and I can feel their strength, and that makes me stronger.

But in the K1, I'm all alone.

Perhaps sometimes I train because I'm afraid that I'm not strong enough to beat my opponents.



Last time, I could always fall back on the excuse that I was a newbie.

First a newbie canoeist,

then a newbie k1 rower,

But now, there's no more excuse.

And this is my last race.

I'd like to say I'll do my best.

But I want that best to get me something.


I couldn't even tell Sensei that I'll do my best.




I can't remember when the last time that I felt like this was. Tomorrow, more than ever, I'll need to psyche down.

Don't freak out and accelerate my blade before it hits the water. Stay calm, breathe calm, pull hard, pull slow, pull with wings.


Sensei's last words: "Don't let my baby down."

I'll do her proud tomorrow.