Wonder why guys are so dumb sometimes.

Some childish feelings or egoism make some people want to fight.

Maybe people are right to say that games and tv promote violence in the wrong way. They think that its heroic, or will make people respect them.

And perhaps it is natural instinct, testosterone, or the high of adrenaline that can be the persuasive factors as well.

This also makes me worry about myself. I'm also affected by the mediums as well. And i know that I too sometimes have had thoughts about disabling someone with violence.

"Whoever fights, doesn't matter who started it - loses". Someone once told me. True. You don't need to know where to hit to injure someone badly, but you don't have god mode on either, dumbass. If its in school, instant suspension. If its outside and its reported, you're going to court, and in most cases, end up in the boys home. Maybe that will help them? I've seen it calm a few of my friends down. But its a real waste of time and life.

Perhaps unlike the average guy, I know where to strike. So many points whereby the quickest poke can do more damage then a full blown punch to the chest.

Which is also probably why I am afraid of what could happen, should I ever lose control.

Maybe I'm finding my balance between heart and mind more and more each day. The heart wishes to do something, but the mind must filter it first. But if the mind wants to do something that the heart does not, then it cannot be accomplished.

Sometimes I wonder why I learnt this crap in the first place. Probably tv and games again, eh? I guess until I find out, I can use it to quell any fight before someone gets seriously hurt.





I saw them walk back and go into the toilet after him.

Immediately called for YX and JW to come with me into the toilet, in the hopes that they won't do anything funny if they see me or a large group of us around.

I prayed that I would not see any blood tonight.


Managed to cool off the other side abit. This time.


But I also wonder if the only way that some people will learn, is if they get what they want and end up hurt.



Sad.