So tired.

Didn't get enough sleep this weekend, going back to camp in 30 mins time.

They said the worst part of bmt is over already, now that field camp has just finished.

Melvin helped me burn naruto and bleach. Managed to watch the series... damn sad.

Can't really think very much of what to log... I've been keeping a diary ever since bmt started. Maybe one day I'll have the time to type it all out.

Here's an extract.

100505
935HRS

4th day of field camp. Out field makes you appreciate all the things in life that you've taken forgranted.

I want so badly to get into a good rpg on my ps2, lie on my bed with the aircon on, and enjoy....

I always thought I'd stay cool without a problem. But Sunday's incident... seeing him on the ground and mud screaming... then having to stand there as he continued to scream in pain... I just ran out to him, tears in eyes, didn't care about protocol at that time.

Some of them look at me and call me their champion, I know they try to draw strength from me. Sometimes that gives me strength. Sometimes I wonder if I can really keep it up.

The path I have to take is unlike what they have in mind. Forsaking prestige again, to do what I truly want.

Life is too short to do what other people tell you to do. I'll fight for this path.



god have mercy on anyone who tries to deter me.