The match with Si last week left me thinking. Whether I should continue with muay thai or skip to wing chun. After testing versus both styles, I have to admit, the basic principles for wing chun are much more practical and devastating, though much harder to master.

I got to hand it to Si for mastering the offensive parry technique. Even though I tried to do split-tandem attacks to nullify his parries, his reactions were just sharper. Which made me remember... the bastard still has his long2 yan3. Whereas I had sealed mine after that incident years back to prevent myself from critically injuring anyone accidentally.

But I have decided not to run away anymore. And I think that this time, I am more capable of controlling myself.

Yesterday I met up with An to unlock my long2 yan3. The first step was completed, and after one week I should have it back if I complete the training.

Its just for reactions... I will not revise the other attacks.

Maybe I need to look for better instructors in Muay Thai before moving on to the next stage completely. Though I have a feeling that I'll just be disappointed again.



Was talking to him abit in the gym today. Wonder when he will finally expect more of himself and realize what he is capable of so that he can finally move on to the next stage. And no, I could not tell him exactly because it is a path that we all have to discover for ourselves.

I just hope that his journey to find his own balance will not be as disastrous as mine was. Though I've never come across anyone else who would blow things out of proportion like me. hahaha.

I think that if I would watch a replay of my life, I wouldn't feel sorry for anyone else, because mine would be the saddest story of them all.