Tonite's run: 8min warmup, 3 X 1.5mins dash, 1.5mins rest, 3 mins cooldown.

It was weird doing dashes with Nitec kia... cause I suppose I'm too used to doing intervals with CX. Anyway Nitec LOST OUT on the last set, then I felt like puking haha.

I suppose I've been bitching about the team and stuff so I ought to log down something good.

Coaching pays off when just one of those blur koks suddenly get enlightened and actually "get it". It gives me hope to see that sentient thought... or at least sentient psychometric progression exists. Its a good feeling seeing how you can assist a blur kok to transform into something that looks like he's possessed by the god of dragon boat.

I worry for the guys, because mr500 is so close, and there's too much to do.

But our main focus is in june anyway.


The media's catching up to me despite my attempts to keep low. But as much as I like keeping a low profile, as far as music is concerned, publicity, and just getting my name out there would help a great deal.

Also got asked to act in some chinese serial? I suppose it could be that big break for some people... but its just not my thing.




In other news.... sis bought an apparition of nature. Its so frickin hideous that I don't know if its a skunk or a dog or something inbetween....







Its like some fuzz-thing you see in an anime. It doesn't even resemble a dog.






Anyway I just had to post a pic of my awesome looking 1982 limited edition airforce 1s. Taken in the uv lighting in zouk:




Damn cool.

Talk about waking up to a bad day.

Of all people, two of the exco have to give me disciplinary problems. One is 30+ years old, the other supposedly has aspirations for this team.

How they could be so absent minded I have no idea.

All the other nteam rowers can come up for safsa training but they can stay on and continue rowing with nteam and be late for our training.

I don't know what they perceive a leader to be. He has to set the example, the standard. If we set a time for training to start and place emphasis on punctuality, we need to lead by example. Have I not been doing that? Why has it not rubbed off? Or is it because they are too dense or have too many other negative modules of leadership? Only by leading by example can you expect the guys to truly respect and follow you. Because you respect them enough first to place yourself in their shoes and show them that whatever you expect of them you can bring them through.

Empathy is the strongest bond you can use as a leader. Simple as that.

I can't believe I still have to be the bad guy in the exco. I've ord'd. I should be able to relax and take care of training matters and not this.

Elitism is the worse poison for team dynamics. Nteam is something that can get people big-headed.

You set the priorities. If that person has character, he will respect you for standing up to your priorities, because its an exibition of strong character and direction. If not, then that person's opinion isn't worth shit.

Truly, this is the first time since forever that I have had to do something like this. Lecturing them infront of the team and having them make a formal apology is not something that I wanted to do, but the lines have to be drawn up even if the person who crossed it happens to be an exco.

Sad that some people take their positions for-granted. Maybe they didn't have to earn their place, maybe they're grown too complacent. Who knows.

Alright... I think its ok for girls to substitute actual text automatically on msn with cutesy little animated emoticons. I mean, its cute, for a girl.

But some GUYS use them. Do they think its cutesy for a guy to represent himself in such a manner? I mean... FOR GOD'S SAKE YOU ACTUALLY WANT CUTESY LITTLE ANIMATED CHARACTERS JUMPING AND ACTING CUTE TO PORTRAY YOUR IMAGE AND IDENTITY?! Sometimes its even godamn hard to tell what the heaven they are trying to say with those faggoty characters prancing around till you have to click and decipher them.

Alright, now that that's off my chest. I've decided to do a recording of "Cloud smiles" From FF7: advent children. Its the ending theme and probably nobuo's most emotive recent theme.

Its funny how I let the exco have more say about training programmes and they can go all over the place in what we should do. And then when they realize that everything's going to shit they realize why the I did what I did early last season and now they want to go back to that.

Sigh.

But I suppose its inevitable. New leaders must make mistakes in order to learn from them and give themselves the direction for future advancement. They won't be able to just listen to sound advice because they need to go out there and gain the experience to be able to see the sense in the advice.

Sad, but that's the way people are, that's why I let them have more say so that they will listen better.



Anyway, I hate to be an asshole during training. Seriously. In the long run, its a highly inefficient method of leading which is tested and proven, but once in awhile, you need to do it. Especially when dog has no energy/confidence to be the bad guy and encik is so.... .... godamn nice.

More so when some people require "hard love" in a way.

I love my team, and you could say that it sucks for me every time I need to become that person to keep a person well guided in the team. I'm not the type to put someone down just to boost his own ego. I don't need to XD



Bleh. I so need to catch up on sleep.

Even heliophobic vampires get more sleep than I've been getting despite their screwed up sleeping and waking hours.

The other day I was complaining about how long it took for one of my more recent piano pieces to be posted on ocremix... and today while checking the reviews page I see reviews on the piece... which means the damn thing got passed on the judges panel and posted on the site without me knowing somehow.

"Parasite Eve's been getting the love lately, with ktriton and now Mr. Kee paying homage to the title, whilst Symbiont Dawn is sadly neglected. Or not; biology humor ftw. This is some very cinematic solo piano work, with Reuben ditching the taikos and other accompaniment for a return to his ivory roots. It's not necessarily a more complex arrangement style compared to his initial pieces, but in the performance you can hear an approach and depth that reflects the passage of time. I love the very minimalist, almost Eyes Wide Shut intro, which segues into natural, arpeggio-anchored motion at 0'20". Oscillations of dynamic and tempo are synchronized to effect a deliberate, swaying motion that can best be likened to natural phenomena: trees in wind, waves, or the uncertain, fluctuating surfaces of estuaries. The preceding sentence clearly illustrates how a lack of judge quotes affects these write-ups. But I digress; it's over four-minutes long, but feels more like a journey than a destination, even though things develop and waves crest several times, more notably circa 2'21". I'd like to see more solo piano arrangers try alternating time signatures and implementing more unorthodox rhythmic progressions, but I can't argue that the regularity present for those criteria in this mix have a hypnotic, lulling influence. This wouldn't be out of place in a stoic, subdued British film about unrequited love between a single mother and a repressed, bearded, seafaring wharfmaster, who figure out only too late that they're soulmates, because one of them has terminal cancer of the mustache, and dies... in a good way. Seriously, for some reason this piece keeps making me think of ocean imagery and water; your nautical mileage may vary. Great work from Reuben, who manages to switch between Eastern and Western styles on his compositions very fluidly, and with seemingly equal talent."

Beauty's Abomination