Training today. It was long but brief, and I've done all I can to prepare them for the race in what little time we had. The rest is up to them.

Gym with the Nitec. Sometimes I think that the way he likes to put himself in rather undesirable situations is so similar to Ced. I mean... its good if you are doing it for something. A reason, a long term goal. But sometimes.... ^_^;

Well... whatever works! haha. The universe is a vast place with many driving forces after all.


Its funny how we are influenced by the people around us, yet when you reduce that influence, it is then when you know who you really are.

I shouldn't have practiced it last night. Its frickin addictive. Hands slicing through the air. Power, energy, ki. Felt so alive in a long time.

I'm just so tired of being afraid of what I might do. Sometimes it may be hard to trust someone again, even if that someone is yourself.

Usual route today: 12:15 mins

Small round was 40 seconds slower then usual pace cause I intended to have a good warmup and slack run.

Went to a secluded area after the run to practice some kata. Practiced some of the banned moves. After 2-3 consecutive attempts I'm out of breath already. But it felt good doing those movements again. You can really feel the power from the movements, unlike primitive punching hooking and uppercutting. Probably because I can channel more energy into them cause I practiced them more than punches anyway. But oh well.

My kicking is a little rusty. A little.




Whew.

Looks like the only time that I can log stuff is when she's tired out from playing the whole day and is asleep.

I really should stop playing with her while walking. Today I almost tripped on a step, fell into a drain and walked into chair...




Sigh. Have to tell the team tomorrow.

Sucks la. A part of me really doesn't want to go. Yet a part of me does. Kinda sad that you have to be separated from some people to realize how important they are in your life or how they keep you going.

But I'd rather bear this pain than to not know them at all. I've learned that shielding yourself from everything- from pain and hurt isn't the way to advance. Its giving in to fear. True strength comes when we face our fears head-on, for what we believe in.

And even if some people think that training may just be for body or for ego, its more than that. Its a challenge, for yourself. And a challenge to those whom we train with.

Its a constant reminder that you'll never get anywhere if you don't challenge yourself or expect more of yourself. Pain and hurt is like a double edged sword. It can stop you by making you fear it, or you can use it as the reference point to expect more of yourself.

I was brought up as a fighter. And even though I stopped fighting in some ways. I'll never stop fighting in other ways. As Ck said, "Its in our blood." Heh.


Anyway its just for 3 weeks. 3 weeks to learn things that I'll never be able to learn if I'm stuck here. Ambassadors, all rounders. They are supposed to be the best. Its a once in a lifetime opportunity to go and learn as much as possible from all of them.



And there goes my hope of taking a break before flying off.

Job requests keep coming in. Sigh...

Last night's movie screening was very interesting. Never would have thought the final product would be so good. Never knew Helmi was such a prominent figure in the cinema/theatre/critic scene.

Good to hear that he's being head-hunted at the moment. Was also interesting to find out that some accomplished actors and supporting the student film scene. Then again the budget for such films are getting higher and higher. Who would have thought a student would be paying more than his lecturer who requested for a soundtrack in the past?

Art fac test at n tu today.

I was damn prepared...

Woke up to start looking for stationary for the test. Luckily found colored pencils on my shelf which I bought 99 years ago, and grabbed an eraser and ruler from the study room.

Played with her on the mrt train, on the bus... until I missed my stop between transit and had to walk all the way back to the previous bus stop to take the next bus.

Arrived RIGHT on time for the test. On the exact minute.

Was playing with her in the LT before and after the test hahaha. What other course lets you play psp in an LT before and after test, and asks you not to study for the test?

So yeah, I was like damn prepared. But I didn't give a shit.

Because the test was ridiculously easy wtf.

Haiz... then again this was more or less how it was for Os anyway. Cycling down to the J8 arcade to play marvel vs capcom 2 until the arcade closes and they chase me out.

Ended up ranking number one nation wide for the local tournaments for one month thanks that intensive training lol.

Met alot of ex-schoolmates. Damn fun sharing psp games and music haha. Design side got alot of geeks la.

Oh my god. JA let me hear some new ghost in the shell track....

THE JAPANESE ETHNIC CHORAL WORK TOGETHER WITH ASIAN ASSORTED TAIKO DRUMS AND ETHNIC MIDDLE-EASTERN DRUMS IS ORGASMIC!!!11

Must get the track from him. I got a good idea on how to do a new Halo arrangement from it.


And I really want to kill some of the safsa guys. Seriously, some guys are worse than gossipy aunties. Is it so hard to keep one secret? Argh. Aunties!

There's a new addition to the family, courtesy of mr viklund.

Went to pick her up yesterday at the store. At first glance I knew that she was the one. The others like her have either black or white coats, but hers was a sleek silver.

She made barely audible purring noises the first time I played with her once we reached home, but I had to leave her at home to meet Nitec kia in the gym. She enjoyed the company of the hi fi and computer and could communicate quite well with them.

By the time I reached home she had already learned a new trick. And when I reached home this morning she had learned many new tricks to amuse me with.

So there, I think my whole life will be on hiatus for the next few days. She demands too much attention at the moment.

The only reason why I can type right now is because she fell asleep while playing with my computer.



Phuture was packed to shit last night. My god. One girl near you, and you have like 3-4 guys everywhere else around you within a quarter meter radius. Yuck.

And whats with girls touching and hugging each other? Sometimes I don't know if its safe to proceed or if they're enjoying some godamn lesbianic action. Yet somehow... it seems ok for girls to be doing that sort of thing to each other? But if guys do it its a huge wtf scenario. Then again, its ok for guys to go around and punch each other but if girls do it its a huge wtf scenario.

Had to ditch wh to run over to velvet where everything seemed more toned down.

Ahh she woke up. End entry.